confuse the right people

See this goal was supposed to be a way to empower myself and not show all my cards. This year, I fell for someone… Well, I fell for several people… Each one harder than the last. The last one seemed as into me as I was her, but for some reason upon closer inspection I was not all that she thought me to be.

I realize that when it came to her. I did contradict who I am a lot. I was, am confused. I shook me to my foundation. As I am just regaining my footing, I realize… I am scared, I am not as strong, I am not prepared for that connection I so desperately desire.

LOL, Keyshia Cole f. Anthony Hamilton – “Losing you” just started playing in iTunes…

I recently learned that the best way to get by is to show my strengths when I am most helpless and to act helpless when I am at my strongest.

This time around I can’t let them know that I know or let them know that I’m doing something. It benefits me for them to think I’m lazy and that I don’t want to do anything. At least for the time being.

Fate

Achieve tranquility through movement.
Integrate spirit and flesh.
From strength learn gentleness.
Through gentleness, strength will prevail.