get a job

For those who haven’t heard yet, I lost my job yesterday. My former bank just wasn’t making enough deals. I had been getting a full forty (40) hours, while I watched the other temps get a day here and there, some even every other week. I knew I had been lucky.

My immediate response was to update my résumé, but I didn’t have focus to do so. I will get it done at some point this weekend, so that I can get a jump on the week. I can’t afford to take a break. I just was not prepared for this.

Time to dust off my old contacts. Missed a great networking opportunity, being asked to speak at an event which I forgot to RSVP for. I will hit the next one. Hopefully, I will be invited to speak again. I think it will be good for my personal growth as well.

I think the worst part of all of this will be telling my son that I am out of work again. I was looking forward to Christmas this year and spoiling him a bit more than usual. He deserves it! I will have to postpone it.

I would like to toast the future. Whatever it may be, I am looking towards it.

I worked at Fed Ex Kinko’s Office and Print Center, the one at Columbus Circle. I didn’t much care for it. I was a Project Coordinator who wore way too many hats. I was over worked and overdrawn. I was the only trained person on my shift but managed to hold it down most of the time.

Over the years I became addicted to the stress. I mean it just became a part of me. It got my blood flowing and I had a purpose. I was strong. I hated it sooo much, but I miss it. I miss being cheered when I walk in for my shift. I missed the relief that washed across everyone’s faces when I came to save the day. I even miss the line of customers at the door that no one else could help or that they were just dropping on me. I miss being able to buy dinner for my entire shift.

While I know that no matter what my next job is, I will not be who I was to that company. I regarded some of those people as family. Some even tho I haven’t been in touch for a while, I still do.

Anyway, I have to do it all over again, eventually. Hopefully, sooner than later. I just found out in order to get a job I have to work backwards. In other words, I must first undo all the bad things that came with not having a job. Like debt, my weight, and over all self-esteme to name a few. A lot of what I feel about not having a job influenced my list.