get my shit together

Gives me hope. I saw it @ the Barnes & Nobles yesterday. I decided on Khalil Gibran’s The Prophet. I will be back to get this book, though.

It list all the women you’ll be before 35 (hence the title.) I’m usually not a fan of these types of books since I am an extreme ” literature snob ” and feel the need to only read “serious literature,” but this one I think is one to pick up. I’d love to talke to a women over 35 that has read it to see if its accurate. unlikely, but who cares.

New Graduate
Dollarless Diva
Worker Bee
Party Girl
Body-Conscious Babe
Chameleon
Crisis Chick
Ms. Independence
Wirl (half woman/half girl)
True You

I’ll be 24 in a little over a week. hhhmmmm This is sure not where I wanted to be @ 24. Thank God I will be spending the day alone. The fam is going to Atlantic City. Maybe I’ll get some time to think and strategize while they are gone.

I cant actually look back and remember the day that t all came to a head…literally and things have been falling a part for me since then. My life has been downhill since the beginning of April 2007 and on a downwar spiral since…some of you have been along for part of that rind but I have never revealed the real…real. I don’t think i’m ready to do that online. I have been trying to hold it together but its damn hard…I have my good days and bad ones. But I havent checked out.

This coulde be a cosmic joke…it could be god testing me. If I cant handle this then maybe I’m not fit for any blessing that may ha ve been awating me…I’m not a religous chick but I don;t know what to believe these days. Gotta focus on my focus…I can’t continue to let life live me …its not getting any better. Its up tp me to make it better.