lose 100 pounds

start- 287
current -247.0
total loss- 40
next mini goal -230 (17 away)
goal date- June 22,2008
Ultimate goal 180 (67 away)
goal for next neek 245 ( 2 away)

this is some bullshit :(

what its like to be thin and then gain a bunch of weight. Not that I want to do it, but I wonder how the struggle would feel if you had at one point been your “ideal” weight and then gained 100 lbs. I was always the fat kid so I have no idea what its like to be anything other than that. Lucky for me I was also quite cute…lol. Is is different when your struggle with weight started at 30 and not at 5? I don’t think any one would be better or worse, just 2 different animals. Just a random thought…

that extra 3 is gone. I am now pretty sure that it was water weight. I walked again today. It was about an hour and a half. I should really stretch before I do that tommorrow. I feell like I’m back on track. I’m to the point where I can’t sleep later, I have to get up and take my walk. The only thing is that I’m in better shape than I was before so I’m going to really have to add more now to lose at the rate that I was before.

I wanted to join a gym but I dont know what I can do with these pinched nerves. I hate working out at home. This is quite frustrating.

did an hour …not as hard as it used to be. Left the pedometer @ home by mistake. Weighed myself, I was up 3. I’m pretty sure thats period weight though. I ‘ll start back with weekly weigh ins next monday. My short term goal is 220 by June 29th ( NYC PRIDE PARADE). That is another 28 lbs, making a total of 67. Hell lets go for 31 so it will be an even 70. I’m feeling risky. lol

I need to remember my ID and Pass so I can use thier meal plane. I no longer can afford a nutritionist to help me with that. Its been so long. Feels like I’m starting ll over. Thank GOD I’hvent really gained. I still wanna be able to wear shorts to the pride parade in June. My thighs are serious business.

that I hadnt seen since i graduated. they were all soooo surprised aobut how much weigh that I had lost. I guess it reall shows in the face b/c….I was sitting an the car @ the time. They were much more excited then I ws. I makes me wanna lose 40 more lbs and seek them out again, lol.

now i have no excuse not to start walikg daily again…im a bit weak these days but i can start slowly like i did before and work my way back up

i kinda want to do the couch to 5k thing…maybe ill bulid up to that

i wonder what type of effect it will have on my pinched nerves…ill check on that with my docotor

PS…i meaured my self today…i couldnt find the book that i kept the orriginal stats in

i rmember that my hips were 52 and my neck was 18.5
now my hips are 45 and my neck is 15, that is an accomplishment, although i have just fallen fully off of the wagon…ill check sparkpeople.com later for my original stats …i may have posted then here …ill loke through them in a bit

its so damn hard to get back on…somebody kick me in the ass

sorry for the janky post…i have yet to sleep …blech

I deliberatly stopped shopping during this process b/c I did’nt want to waste money. I went shopping yesterday…I guess i overestimated what size I would be. Or underestimated in this case. All my 18s and 20s are too big. But the 16 I tries on yesterday were way too small. Okay, not a big deal. But so were the 18s. I may have just been in tht store, but nonetheless, I just left the mall. THis is the first time the mall has ever frustrated me. Before the dieting I’d shop all day and never feel discouraged aobut a size. But Now that I’ve lost weight, I feel shitty. hhhmmmpphhhh

You ever just hate eating? I mean I really just dont want to be bothered with it. I used to love it. Now my mom has t oreally make my eat like I’m an infant. I look at food and go ..blaech. Why?