lose 100 pounds

I’ve done 3 spin classes this week. My ass hurts less and I am seeing differences already. It is most def. a mind body exercise. It kicks my ass and I love it. I reccommend anyone that has access to a spin class should take advantage.

I have not have had any refined suguar or soft drinks in 3 weeks. i don’t miss it.

I do need to eat more protien. I am pretty sure that my lack of energy (and my serious anemia) is at least partially the cause of my lethargy and shitty attitude.

I kick ass on the elliptical.

The hip adduction machine is the devil.

The glute machine is also the devil BUT it will also give me that sexy Beyonce arch above my butt, so its all good.

Let’s not even start on the stair climber.

My gym partner quit on me. I was not surprised, She’s a quitter. But she’s paying for both memberships and she’s locked into a year whether she goes or not. So whatever. It would have been nice to have some tangible support, but people don’t change who they are at their core.

I still dont think I’ve lost any weight. My scale obsession was driving me batty so I gave that damn thing away until May 1st.

I have been doing a lot of lower body strength training partially b/c I want a perectly shaped ass. Mostly b/c I am so scared to do the upper body. I’d hate to come out of this with more nerve damage than I already have.

So that’s the last 3 weeks in a nutshell. * shrugs *

OMFG!!!!!! I tried it yesterday. This is the best and worst thing ever. It really kicked my ass, but it was so worth it. I felt so accomplished. My ass hurts and my neck and shoulders are sore. It’s that good pain that lets you know that you put in work. I did not think that I would make it through the full 60 minutes. There were girls there there that were half my size that left 30 min. into the class. I made it through. I was so proud of me and my gym buddy. There was a puddle beneath us but we made it. This will now be a part of my routine @ least 2x a week. It’s such a beautifully ugly feeling. I dig it. pats myself on the back

1. 5 full days able to eat 3 meal & staying in my calorie allowance
2. ALL the weight gaineg after I joined the gym is gone

now the focus is on losing the wieght that I gained back when I fell off. That 15 lbs. Once that is done, I will finally be able to concentrate on losing NEW weight.

That is almost gone. I have 1.4 lbs left to lose before I am back at the gym starting weight. Yay!!! for small victories.

After gaining the weight back this week I considered giving up. That was short lived. i don’t know what I am doing wrong. When I was walking daily, I could drop up to 5 lbs a week. Now that I am actually at the gym working out , I’m gaining. WTF?

I think that I don’t eat enough. Most days I onyl eat once a day or every other day. I really need regular meal plan. Everytime I buy the food I need some gluttonous ass eats it before I get to it. UGH.

and I GAINED 10 LBS. I hate life.

now what?

I have a bigger problem than I can tackle alone. I have decided to attend an Overeaters Anon. Maybe being physically around people that share my issues. This is such a difficult problem when the people around you all think you can stop eating and go for a walk and everything is all good.

I am going to get my ass up on Saturday morning and mingle with hte fellow fatties.

that I need to finish what I started. I have avoided taking full body pics b/c I did not want to face this. But after this pic , I realize that I have to get back on the grind. This is officialy my before pic. The after will be fabulous.

Th funny thing is that I don’t think that I look bad and I am smaller than when I started. I should just be further along. I wish that I had a pic w/o the mask b/c my makeup is flawless. I look damn good from the boobs up. But this rectangle thing that is happening on the bottom must be fixed.

hmmm. gotta get back to work.

craving buffalo wings.

Time for for bed.