Make it big with my songs and poems.

I lied, I said id never give up, but I lost all motivation, and creativity. My mind is dead, each day get worse.

Someone once told me,
to look on the brighter side of things
Well turn the light on,
Because I don’t see anything…
Turn on the light,
Bc what good is the dark when I cant see…

Some body once told me,
Not to be so down,
Well come lift me up,
Please don’t let me down,
Because I don’t want to be dropped,
Like im just dirt, on the ground….

Bc I see nothing good,
If im trapped in the dark,
And my spirits cant be lifted,
After a broken heart
I am so lost,
Because this maze has no end,
I lost all my trust,
And will never gain it back again…
Oh I cant see,
Any good things
In the dark…
So turn the light on

Someone once told me,
don’t be afraid of anything,
But theres so much to fear,
Bc out there, there could be anything
Theres so much to fear,
More than we can just see..

Some body once told me,
Keep my head high,
But they make me feel so ashamed
Like im never right,
Make me feel so ashamed…
But I feel too weak to fight….

I see nothing good,
If im trapped in the dark,
And my spirits cant be lifted,
After a broken heart
I am so lost,
Because this maze has no end,
I lost all my trust,
And will never gain it back again…
Oh I cant see,
Any good things
In the dark…
So turn the light on

Cant you see?
There’s no room for me…
Theres no air to breath,
Im no longer free..

Like im trapped,
In a big metal cage,
And you swallowed the key,
As you walk away,

I feel like,
Im tied up in chains,
I only go where you go,
And do what you say

Feel so controlled,
Cant make it on my own,
You have me thinking,
Without you, id be alone…

Its like im trapped,
In a big metal cage,
You swallowed key,
Laughed and then walked away

I have to hide my tears,
Bc it shows that im weak,
Bc when im “strong”
that’s when you say you love me,
And that’s all I want…

Feel like im being judged,
All too much,
One thing I do wrong,
Its like im not enough

It feels like im trapped,
In a big metal cage,
You swallowed the key,
Grinned, and walked away…

I couldn’t comprehend it
if I tried…
So many unanswered questions,
So many times I cried….
Do you even care?
If I just disappeared,
What would you do?
If I said I still love you….

Our love story,
doesn’t have an end
As I sit here wondering,
What could have been, (2x)

I still think about you,
When I close my eyes,
You’re still right here..
In the back of my mind
I blame you
For every tear that falls,
My heart keeps breaking,
And im blaming you for it all
So much pain I endure….
So hard I try….
But you choose to ignore…
These tears I cry…

Our love story
doesn’t have an end,
As I sit here, wondering,
what could have been…(2x)

Who knows
What could have been,
But I gave in…
I fell for it…
I fell for what should’ve been….
But it was your smile,
That made me lose
It was your lies…
That made me fall for you…
And that I said it
I did really mean it,
But you didn’t…
Looks like I was the only one
That was in it….

Our love story
doesn’t have an end
As I sit here wondering…
What could’ve been…
What could’ve been….

There’s a little piece,
Of my heart,
Since you last had it,
It’s torn apart…
There’s a little piece,
Of my mind
You took when you left
Me behind….

I don’t know how to deal with this…
My heart is so broken and bent….
I don’t know how to heal
Ive never felt pain be this real….

I know life gets this tough….
But when you left, I gave up…..
And I know its going to hurt,
and its going to take some tears….
And I know life isn’t the best…
Without you here….

Instead. Of crying..
I close my eyes fast
Instead of venting….
I just choose to laugh…
I hold it in…
I never let go…
The feeling that no one cares…
And that no one needs to know..
I have it all the time,
I have it now…
So I hide my self…
Refusing to cry it out…
No one will find out
No one, not even you…
No, you wont,
Ever find out the truth…
I think im strong…..
Bc Ive been faking for so long…
Taught myself,
to lie to you
As if my smiles,
were true
Bc I was told,
Its better to hold it in,
Bc no one cares…
You better hold it in,
Bc in the end, no one will be there…..
I hold it in…
I never let go…
The feeling that no one cares…
And that no one needs to know..
No one will find out
No one, not even you…
No, you wont,
Ever find out the truth…

I thought I was over you…
Til you walk into my life again….
When I saw your face walk by….
Too sad it had to end….

I don’t love you anymore….
But I love who you used to be…
A man of many great things,
Someone who made me
I wish I could go back…
And fix what went wrong….
But its not possible…
Ive tried for so long…

But its over,
I know….
Its just so hard…
To let go…
Oh its over….
Theres no more us…
No more love….
No more trust…
And its over…
Who knows why….
Its all over….
Goodbye….

Why do you do it?
Why did you come back,
into my life,
I was doing okay,
I was doing fine,
This is no joke
I swear I forgot
But then I saw your face…
And I remembered everything I lost….

I don’t love you anymore….
But I love who you used to be…
A man of many great things,
Someone who made me
I wish I could go back…
And fix what went wrong….
But its not possible…
Ive tried for so long…

But its over,
I know….
Its just so hard…
To let go…
Oh its over….
Theres no more us…
No more love….
No more trust…
And its over…
Who knows why….
Its all over….
Goodbye….

In the car
Its past nine
And ive already cried
Coming home tonight
Im alone again
I turn the radio up
And try to listen
That song comes on
The one where
I used to sing along
Oh I use to sing along
Oh I used to sing along
But then the song turned out wrong
So I can no longer sing along
A happy tune
And such inspiring words
Something I thought was true
But it was just a cover-up
Until the damage is done
In the car
Im pulling in
Im home now
But alone again
I turn the radio off
When the song ends
I put down my head
Because I use to love that song
Because I used to sing along
I use to sing along
Oh I used to sing along
Put the words were so wrong
So I no longer sing along
Im going to bed early
To an empty bed
I don’t wanna wake to
Finding out that this is the end
But I cant go to sleep
I am restless
So I try to sing my self to sleep
My nighttime song
But your not here to sing along
Your not here to sing along,
Oh your not here to sing along,
Turns out the lyrics were all wrong
Your no longer here, to sing along

Close your eyes
Sleep tight
don’t you worry
About my night
Have sweets dreams
You steal mine
Cant you hear the tears
I cry?
Close your eyes
don’t you worry about me
Just fall asleep
Have sweet dreams
Then maybe you’ll see
When you wake
you’ll tell me
This was never ment to be
Say goodnight
Say goodbye
As one tear falls from my eye
Goodbye
Sleep tight
As the angels hear
My cries
Sleep in peace
Ill sleep in pain
But as long as your happy
Ill pretend to be the same
Your goodbye
Is my pain
This lullaby
That I sing
Do you hear
my melody
Just go on without
Me

You got me smiling like a little girl

You hold me so tight like im your world

And when I see that look upon your face

I know your happy if that’s the case

I want to be with you forever

I wont let go, no never

When its any special day

You give me things to blow me away

And when its any normal time

You tell me things that blow my mind

For all those other girls its to bad

Because You’re the best love ill ever have