be more outgoing

So far, I tried the internet dating … it sort of work and sort of not work. I should enjoy the journey of achieving this goal, shouldn’t I?
life is full of supprises.

Although it’s a subtle goal, it’s actually very important for my mental health. I have been spending the whole day inside my dorm to study. I didn’t talk to anyone at all…then, I found out by the end of the day that I was in the same mental state of isolation. I am the problem. I am isolating my own self.

This is sad!

By the time that I meet someone I know, I am still in that same state of mind of being very quiet and distance. I couldn’t communicate with them even if I wanted . I’m like…shy away from them . I shouldn’t do that!

I need people in my life.

I’m going to fix this mistake by waking up earlier tomorrow and meet those that I didn’t say ‘hello’ to today. They are in their own places. So, I have to go to their place and greet them. May be just to see them smile will make my day complete. I mean I don’t have any attention disorder but I simply just want to see them.

“Being more outgoing” in my point of view is not exactly about going to parties…but it’s a lot about being in the known other other existing human.

Well, this goal is similar to …. getting a boyfriend. I don’t understand how other people always in a relationship while many of us are not. I hope that wasn’t reality.

I think I will try to relax a little bit and just push myself to be out in the public some more. Hopefully life will bring me somebody that fit me.

well, this goal is something that I’m incorporating into my daily life. It takes a whole lot of efforts in planning to be more outgoing, especially you need to realize where to go. Currently, I’ve been going to this church at school, gathering with a second Christian group, and renewing old connections with friends and teachers.

Don’t know if I’ve done enough. Time will answer whether or not I’ve done it correctly. But…I’m praying god (any gods not just Jesus alone ) to help me.