eliminate the stuff from my life which doesn't fulfill me spiritually, emotionally or creatively

and to remind myself of this, when I’m not.

So, I’m going to mark this done.

I’ve found a little irritating thing about myself that I do sometimes.

I don’t want people to take what I say too personally (especially if it’s not about them anyway.) But yet then I’ll take other people’s words personally, or I’ll question person B as to whether they take person “A”s words personally or not, or why or why not they do.

So, it’s like saying, “Don’t take my words personally, but take their words personally, because I do.” And quite frankly, this sucks! I shouldn’t do this. I really don’t want to.

There are times when I have talked privately to someone where I have cut another person down, and while they may have “deserved it.” My reasons at the time, were no better than saying, “It was there.” This is something I need to stop doing.

It just felt like it was the right thing to do.

This may sound gloomy and depressing but I’ve had an experience of someone trying/wanting to be my friend, and well, who doesn’t want more friends you might say. Or why is that a problem?

But the whole thing just seemed kind of fishy and suspect to me. I reciprocated the “kindness” for awhile, but I honestly kept scratching my head thinking, “why me?, and what’s up with this?”

Okay, maybe I myself have acted friendly towards some people and made them wonder why. And maybe it’s no crime to do so. And maybe I should stop being so paranoid and just enjoy this kindness, but geez, I was just getting these bad vibes, like these gut feelings, these negative gut feelings, that something just isn’t right here. And then more than once now my suspicions have been confirmed.

I thought of just chalking it up to paranoia, or being overly suspicious, but I’ve done that before, and regretted it. Gotta listen to those gut feelings!

And the friends that fulfill me emotionally are the ones who are consistent with their good behavior.

Sweet Mary Sunshine one minute, and bad girl hangin’ with the bad boys the next, doesn’t do it for me.

I want friends that I can count on, and not have to waste time worrying about how many times I’ll have to let stuff slide with them, before I finally get fed up.

What of replacing things that are unfulfilling, with something else that is? or adding things that are?

I would not have adopted this goal if it weren’t for Julie Jordan Scott.

God bless you, Julie! :-)