Practice Gratitude

• mom and dad arrived home safely
• able to provide some comfort for Miss OE
• money is abundant. Mom is sending money for clothes and plane fare. it’s just been mentioned so far but I’m happy about it.
• I’m going back to work on Monday. I’m looking forward to having a more regular schedule. I’m joining the living again.
• my line of credit is proceeding along. the bank seems to have my back and they are fighting for a higher appraisal price.

• i like my new roomie
• we made a wonderful dinner
• i woke up feeling almost rested this a.m.
• the meeting with the village went alright
• mom’s funny message

• my squeeky clean carpets and clean condo
• getting angry and the revelation that I deserve an apology.
• Japanese roommate coming tomorrow
• it looks like my line of credit will go through. Someone has my back and is looking out for my ailing checking account even when I’m not. whew! I’m so grateful. I’ve been yelling it for two days.
• Pam, my friend with whom I had a falling out, called the other day.

• for the peace looking out my window esp. for seeing the beauty of that tree which I have seen before many times
• for the time off to relax and recharge
• for the healing as of late
• for the angels marching around me when I was napping
• for the strength to eat healthily the past couple of days

*thanks for this wonderful learning experience and being given the time to relax and recharge.
*thanks that I got out of the house and went for a walk with Steve. It went well, thanks for that too. I am so thankful that it went well.
*thanks for giving myself a break. Indulging my avoidance is going okay.
*thanks for the psych appt recently. I’m hopeful that it’ll be good. And I’m thankful that I didn’t have to get into all the details again.
*thanks for the email from mama.
*thanks for the strength to not indulge myself at the grocery store. I didn’t even think about it. The power of a list!!! And thanks for the indulgence as I was driving home tonight to not get a snack. Yes, I had the presence of mind to drive on by with the thought of some good tea satisfying me instead. Very true. Tea is more satisfying.
*Thanks that I’ve been able to accept myself more.
*I’m very thankful for the peace of mind and forgiveness I’ve had for C, L and L.
*Thanks for the wonderful conversation with Karen the other day. I’m thankful that she listened. I’m thankful that she’s so supportive. I can’t even describe how thankful I am that she is who she is and I have the pleasure of knowing her. I’m thankful that she has the strength to set intentions for how she wants work to be. I’m thankful that she understands that work and emotion are integrated and she makes it all normal.

I’m so thankful that….I’m seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow. It’s finally time. I hope it goes well…..Heroes was on tonight…..I have so many good books to read…...I was able to order the CP style guide from the library…...my new used fridge…...the support of mom and dad, brother and alison…..the support of my workmates while I’ve been on leave…..my friends esp. Megan and Yvonne….Karen calling last week…..the shred of hope that I’ll go back to work again….the lightness after the releasing anger meditation i did earlier…..........................

Last night I thought about everything I was grateful for as I was in bed.

I was grateful for general things like my health, the roof over my head….I’ve had that gratitude clarity but not in that groove quite yet. I know it’ll come.