Spend more time doing nothing

of being removed from my daily routines before the anxiety and worries and lists in my head lift and I can feel what it is to be me. It amazes me every time. In the past, it has taken 7 days.
The web of attachments and tugs and pulls of the world must have thickened in the last year. I’m here to say I feel free today. Hooray! I’m illustrating this with a Little Blue Heron because nature tries to contact me by surprising me and returning me to myself with meaningful signs, such as the appearance of glorious birds.

to do Sunday so I can spend more time doing nothing! The down side is that it took my working 12 hours at an early childhood conference today (Saturday) to drive me to the point of making sure I take time to do nothing. Why is there so little time for me? I suspect it’s partly that it’s a bit lonely and sometimes scary when I’m just hanging out with me. I let work keep my mind busy, so I don’t have to think - or feel - too deeply. Or make choices about what I really want. Hey, you know, what my 43 goals are and how to reach them.

I’m about to work on making this goal a reality! I’m going to see how little I can do this evening. A little reading maybe. A little Olympics watching maybe. A walk to the food co-op maybe. I might even doze off in front of the TV set!

. . .too little play. I just want to meditate, watch the clouds, hike on a mountain, walk a beach, let my mind go blank.