help others in need

I do not know the meaning of life….seriously I am confused.
I wanna follow tyler durden because he lives the true life.
To live instead of exist.FUCK society and its shangles.
If you help someone without that in anyway benefiting you then you have done well.I haven’t helped anyone as of now and infact have caused pain to quite a few so I would like to make a meaningful life from now.
Of course I cant start now because I need to do college and earn something but with time I will and I promise.
I dont believe in materialistic possesions per se but I do see that they are a requirement to an extent.
I dont wanna have a merc or a bungalow…I wanna have a beautiful apartment in NYC,travel by transit and never get married(at least not till 34).Help others and try to be happy.
Help others and be drunk because being drunk is fantastic.It takes me to a different world altogether.
Smoking,drugs….no no…never.
I also don’t have other interests that people stupidly blow their money on like arts or jewellery
I am crazy about movies so a good DVD collection and alcohol collection thats IT.
rest I wanna do for others….bring a smile on someone else’s face.