stop dating losers

I’m dumping the one I’m with now.
I’ve found a fantastically amazing guy. We like each other, a lot, we’ve talked about it, and I wont be surprised if we’re dating by Christmas; he has some personal stuff to sort out, but he’s very much worth a little patience. No more losers, only good guys from here on out.. and it’s possible that this one, the amazing guy, is the one. I’m am so happy its almost depressing. :D
There is a light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to be sure you recognize it when it shows up.

ha, I need to change this to ‘stop going back to this loser’. Third try… is not a charm… Why am I sooooo addicted to him? He treats me like I’m just a friend in public, not at all affectionate, I think he loves me but I don’t know that he’s in love with me, but I really do love him. You’d think I would’ve learned by now that every time I give him my heart he’s going to hand it back in pieces. I don’t think he knows how to do it any other way. He even tried to talk me out of it. He said he would inevitably hurt me, he cared about me and that’s why it would be better for me to move on and forget him, because he didn’t want to hurt me and it killed him to think that he could and probably would. But I told him, stupidly, that I didn’t care if I got hurt again, that I loved him and he was worth the risk… Now I don’t know. I’m remembering everything I didn’t like about the last two times with him. Things already happening again, and it’s only three days into this go around of the relationship. Ugh.. why can’t he just be the good guy I know he’s capable of being all the time? why does the side of him that’s a complete jerk have to show up at all?

The high-school dropout who’s now attending jr. college, having that paid for by his parents, living at home, no job, no real ambition, takes you for granted, he’s charming and gorgeous… and wins you over, he casts a spell on you that you don’t understand, tells you he loves you (lie), you believe it, once you realize what you’re really into you don’t know how to get out of it, and almost don’t want to, then he leaves you, swears you’ll still be friends and still hang out; more lies.

The irresponsible but sweet guy that lives 2 hours away and makes you make the trip from your house to his every time you see each other. He has weird obsessions… and something about him gives you the idea that he’s only told you half-truths, about everything. You like him but his easy nature actually puts you on guard instead of at ease. You don’t know if you can really trust him, and he’s way to quick to say I love you.

The way-to-old-for-me dead-end-job jerk that only wants in your pants. He tells you he wants to be your fuck-buddy and gets angry when you say you don’t think you would be able to keep it strictly physical; you’d get emotionally attached.That one didn’t last long…

these are just three of the several jerks I’ve had the misfortune of dating. I actually fell in love with one of them too, he broke my heart so bad.

I’m sick of losers.

Where’s my mr. nice guy? my decent guy? my honest guy?

and an even better question, when and how will I get myself to stop getting into these way-less-then-ideal relationships?

I know I have to do that for myself, no one can make me or do it for me.

I need to stop dating losers. That’s all there is to it.