ok — 2 years ago
Done that. God damn it, this hurts!
I love her, and she loves me.
We’ve gotten back together and broken up a few times.
Post last breakup, she sold her house and decided to move to GA. I cant blame her. Now she’s gone and I’m in hell. Scratch that. We’re both in hell. I’m helpless, and hopelessly lost. She’s not with me, so I suffer horribly. I could end this all by letting go. But I cant. She’s the only person who ever loved me for who I was – no more, no less; completely accepting, not judging.
That happens maybe once in a lifetime. There are two ways to escape this pain. 1. Marry her and be ecstatically happy and close out my life in Florida. 2. End it and suffer excruciating pain for a few months. Then move anyway because I cant afford a house in Florida.
Makes it sound like a no-brainer, I suppose.
I love her. I want us to be together. I want things to be easy for us again – I dont want it to have to be so hard.
