quit smoking for good

i have been sucking lately with quitting. its hard cuz my bf smokes…....and sometimes we tell each other we are gonna quit ‘on monday’. sunday comes and one of us gets stressed about something and we go buy another pack and the cycle starts all over again. i realy wanna get the patch but cant afford it. cold turkey isnt helping.

I really want to quit smoking. it starting to be a ‘drag’ lol. I like doing it when im driving to places far away and its an excuse to do it so i can have a break ….but its starting to taste gross to me and i dont like that feeling in my insides…like im burning something. I really wish i could get hired at a job in my town….rather than drive far. I feel like i need that coffee and smoke in hand =[ my dream job is this coffee shop (not my dream job i guess…but its something that looks like fun) and doing so may help me quit or smoke less. i wish i could get that job so i can afford the patch or something of the sort. ughghhg