dance all night and then dance some more

i havnt been dancing much lately =[ i feel too uncomfortable with myself to do so. one of my goals is to lose some weight so that i could wear some cute outfits to dance in. iv been going to parties with jeans and t-shirts and just drinking….watching everyone else. im back to square one. im not even big but when i dance in front of a mirror….i annoy myself lol.

oh yeah, the fact that nobody will hire me even though i have alot of experience means i dont have money to buy stuff… im getting so angry over this. money is evil.

i went to a party and didnt dance at all. im pretty dissapointed in myself. oh well…..ill definitly dance at Whistle. i had alot on my mind that night…....

iv been ‘raving’ for a long time now. i have alot of fun partying because i meet so many people, i love the music, and i love to watch people dance. i also go with the intentions on dancing myself but i somehow get nervous and i dont dance at all. i care too much about what people think. i also drink too much and end up having to sit down until the room stops spinning.

im not getting any younger. if dancing is what i want to to…i shall do it! i danced soooo much at the last party and had a GREAT time because of it. my friend and i thought we would be the girls staring at others. however, we got there….....and just danced…...and danced….....and danced.

i was told i danced ‘cute’. thats better than ‘you dance really….....bad’. haha. so, my goal is to not be the girl who just stands there. nope.