lose twenty pounds

I’m determined not to weigh myself until my clothes start fitting loose. So far, that’s not the case. I’m a sucker for temptation. Patty brings in cupcakes to work for her birthday. Sherry brings in another treat for her birthday, and I’m so bored I eat two or three of everything. Then go home and eat some more. Lay in bed in the morning until I talk myself out of a walk. It’s first thing in the morning or it won’t get done. And now. I don’t have to work until 4 this afternoon, so instead of getting any more done around the house, or taking a walk, I’m ready for a nap. I really need some motivation here. Shaving my head in December if I don’t lose twenty pounds just isn’t enough. Maybe I need to think of a reward instead of a punishment? Hmmm…

got a 30 minute walk in. ate a sensible breakfast and decent lunch. Just had to eat those last two chips ahoy cookies left in the package. I’ll keep a separate diary to write down all the details. Use this forum just as an update. Biggest temptation, the two or three glasses of wine in the evening. It helps me sleep.

Got a good 40 minute walk in this morning before the heat set in. Ate a breakfast of raisin bran and yogurt. Lunch wasn’t so great. Went to A&W with hubby and had a cheeseburger, onion rings and a root beer. Small cheeseburger, anyway. And only 3 onion rings. And watermelon at home for “dessert”. I’ll walk to church later on, too. Or at least that’s my plan. We have a roast in the crock pot for dinner. Nice and lean, with veggies on the side. I don’t really like having to keep track of everything I eat and every step I take, but it seems I must in order to get a grasp on this weight loss thing. Twenty pounds, beware, you are about to meet your demise!

Okay, I’m giving myself five months to do this. That’s four pounds a month. Surely an attainable goal, is it not? And I’m doing it without help from artificial substances, like Alli, which I was really tempted to try when it came on the market. I know what it takes cuz I’ve lost weight before, through proper diet and exercise. Never twenty pounds though. I just want to prevent myself from having to lose thirty, or forty. The people in this area are just so BIG and unhealthy. I don’t want to be one of them. I’m doing this for my health. My aching legs and ankle that are feeling the pressure of the extra twenty.

It took me three years to put it on. It’ll probably take twice as long to take it off. Twenty unwanted pounds of fat now cover the once flat abs of my early 30’s, and I’m so tired of it. I’ll start tomorrow, I always say. (Another thing I want to do…stop procrastinating!) I’ll do good for a week, maybe ten days, lose three pounds, just to gain them back through an ice cream frenzy. I try five pounds at a time, but can’t even get there. I used to be so good at this weight control thing. Nothing drastic. Just simple steps kept it off. Then menopause hit. Then ann inept doctor messing with my thyroid medication. My walking buddy dead of cancer. How do I get back on track? Why won’t my efforts work anymore?