Despite my triumph over blaming myself for making an honest mistake detailed in my last post, I’ve been incredibly stressed out at work lately. The stress is interfering with my sleep, my health, and my happiness.
I go to these meetings about the new project, and I have no idea what anyone is talking about, and I realize that I don’t have the knowledge or the skills these people think I do.
Here’s the deal: Yes, I am going to have to learn a whole lot, very quickly, in a somewhat unsupportive atmosphere for learning. Much is going to change, and I’m not sure how it’s going to affect my working style and tasks, and that uncertainty is as scary as hell.
However, I have been completely focusing on everything I don’t know and can’t do, and not fortifying myself with the reminders that I have a big strength: I am a very quick learner. I am ideal for a situation that requires picking up new concepts quickly and well. If I don’t have the competencies they are expecting of me yet, I can be sure that I will have them soon.
I have to focus on my strengths, make peace with uncertainty and change (no easy task for me!), and trust my creative warrior self to emerge. I will make this work. I will thrive. I will hold my head high and be satisfied with my best efforts, making no apologies for not being perfect.