We are having a statewide meeting, and videoconferencing throughout several sites. Since I am proficient in videoconferencing, when they asked for someone to test the connection ahead of time, I volunteered.
It turns out that the local conference location is going to be in my old place of employment. Before I was the director of my organization, I worked as a program specialist in a similar organization. When the director of that organization retired, I applied for director there, but they hired someone else, and a year later, my position was cut because of funding cuts.
[I am the classic case, by the way, of “when one door closes, another opens”, because as soon as I was laid off, my adoption went through, so I got to spend a year home with my new daughter, and after a second year of staying home and freelancing, was asked to be the freelance director of this other organization, and now I am so, so glad I was laid off.]
So I’ve been out of this organization for three and a half years, and had worked there for 5 years, and felt semi-yuck about the organization and the people there, because I was really surprised by the lack of support for my candidacy for the director position, and of course, though it wasn’t their fault, being laid off. Even though it all truly worked out for the best.
I made arrangements to drive over to conduct the test, and the director came out to say hello. I have mixed feelings about her. I worked under her for a year. It was her first managerial position, so I really tried to give her slack, but she was a ridiculous micromanager, and the retired director had been the exact opposite. So there were some weird feelings, I guess, especially since she knew I had tried for her position and didn’t get it. She definitely felt threatened, and I understood why. But this was three and a half years ago, and now since we were colleagues, we’ve run into each other a few times and it’s been cordial.
She sent me to do the test with her secretary, and when (of course) the equipment wasn’t up to par, the IT woman came in. She was from my time, and I had always been friendly with her, but she was clearly pissed, because she hadn’t been told I was coming. I understand that frustration, but it really wasn’t my fault. So the director came into the room, and was worried about pissing off the IT person. Believe me, I understand that! But when I told the director that we needed a microphone and camera, she shook her head and imperiously said, “No. We won’t have either of those. There’s no need for them to see or hear us on their end. As long as we can hear and see them, we can just type our questions in the chat box.”
Well, technically she’s right. And I understood there were politics involved about not pissing off the IT department- I remember the scene there, and the IT department doesn’t consider itself working for her part of the organization they work for- it’s a long, stupid story. But is any of this MY freaking fault? I’m just there, volunteering to do this test for the region. I am really, really bitter that they were so rude to me.
I suppose the whole point of this is that I am so grateful not to be part of this organization anymore. Yes, I make less money now, and have no pension or benefits, but it is so worth it to have autonomy and be in charge and not have to deal with these morons on a day-to-day basis. Whew. Things have really worked out well, considering. Remember this when things seem to have gone wrong, rosewilder! There is always a silver lining; and what seems difficulty might really be opportunity.