get over social anxiety

I’m not all better or anything – but I’m doing a lot better with this one. I’m still uncomfortable in crowds, but I’m ok. I don’t have a hard time breathing or completely tense up. I still feel a little on edge – but nothing like before.

I still get bad sometimes when we are in a place I’m not used to being at and he goes off and I don’t know where he is. But as long as I kinda know where he is or at least know where I am – I do ok.

Hopefully I’ll keep improving over time. But considering I don’t take any of my anti-anxiety meds anymore I think I’m doing good.

I’ve had social anxiety for as long as I can remember. When we are at a movie or out to eat and Ron goes to the bathroom, I get lightheaded and completely tense up. I feel like everyone is looking at me. I have to talk to myself in my head and tell myself to breathe and he will be right back. It’s awful! Everyone just says not to worry about what people think and that I shouldn’t be that self centered as to think people are all looking at me. They don’t understand. I’m not being self centered. I feel like they are criticizing me and tearing me apart. To be honest I’m sure it’s because of my self esteem. I’ve tried everything I can think of. I’m thinking of trying therapy again – for this and some other problems, and I’m thinking about trying meds again. I hate taking them but obviously doing this on my own isn’t happening.