be more patient

as it’s gonna get. I’m considering this done. No one can be perfect.

Went to have dinner at my folks with my older brother-wife-2kids, myself and best friend Steve. I knew that this was going to be difficult for me… just being in that house can set me off. But the younger one, my nephew brought games along… (thanks to his father telling him that I like to play games)... He’s about 7 yrs old, dyslexic and hyper… But I managed to keep my cool… there were moments when I just wanted to through the game out the window… but I didn’t let him see how frustrating it was to play with him.
When I left… he said “I love you Aunt Rana”... so all was ok…

I went to a new dentist office today. And they were super busy.. I had a feeling that they were gonna be running late.. So I pulled out a book I picked up at the library on the way.. and just read until they called me.
I’m so glad I picked up that book… it made the time fly by and I wasn’t anxious at all.
So lesson learned BE PREPARED for possible delays at places or while waiting for someone to get here… if I keep busy..I won’t get impatient.

Went to dinner with my folks, and my brother’s family. This means there was two little kids at the restaurant….same table… and loaded with stuffed animals—That made NOISE. At one point I told them I was going to throw them into the fireplace!!!
It was so HARD to try and stay calm… they never stopped talking, and the boy had to have the SAME things as his sister… and his voice was SOOOO LOUD!!
I told my brother… better you than me.
I could not take care of little kids… They drive me nuts!!
Okay.. must make myself breathe deeply right now..just for thinking about it!!

I was supposed have a meeting at 1:00, and she didn’t show up until 1:45. I didn’t loose my cool, I just busied myself…and then I wasn’t thinking about the time.

Saturday while on the phone with verizon tech people for just about 2 hours… I stayed calm, didn’t lose my patience with these guys..
It took a long time to fix what was wrong, and they tried so many different things..
I was just grateful.

Saturday I went to visit my daughter. Never been there before. And the directions her father gave me were HORENDOUS!! I got so friggin’ lost. What should have been about a 2 hour drive became 3 hours+. But I really managed to not freak out and get impatient.
And I didn’t chew him out when I got there!!!

I donated quite a few things through freecycle last week. And because of weather and other things, people have been changing the days/times when they are going to pick things up.
And it’s not making me anxious, might be because my living room is still a mess (they haven’t finished my kitchen yet), so those extra bags don’t seem to make a difference.

I spent the entire afternoon trying to fix it. I was about to throw it out the window. And realized I really F’d it up. When I ran out and bought a new mouse, I was able to get it “mostly” back to normal.
I was not happy…but I kept at it. Now all I have to do is wait till my folks come back from vacation so my dad can help me fix the rest.

My apt building was replacing my cabinets on Tuesday. Well they ordered the wrong sizes for one of the counter tops, and one of the top cupboards. So this means all my kitchen stuff is still in my living room.
I talked to management about an hour ago. And was told that it could be anywhere from 4 days to a week before the new ones come in.
I thought I would be more anxious and impatient.. But I am handling it well. I think it is because I am being proactive by talking with management and getting updates.
Not that I like having all this stuff crammed into my living room… But I am dealing with it.