relearn calculus so I intuitively understand it

this one is a shame only because there has been so much other crap going on in my life that i dont really have
a) a use for calculus at the moment
b) any justification for doing anything that goes toward finishing this goal.

sooooo with that said, this is also more of a longterm goal. i think i fall into the trap where i think i have to get all of thes edone in a timely manner, when in fact i dont.

Yeah, check it out. I went and bought one of those books with calculus lessons at the end of every chapter and lots of examples. not a textbook, just a refresher. anyways, i got up to chapter 6 last fall. its tough to complete a goal like this during the summer, but through my studies last fall, I ended up finally getting the whole tangent/derivative/what it means mathematically as well as graphically angle.

I’m not dumb, far from it, I just think I had a horrible high school calc teacher, and when you learn something wrong the first time around, it takes some time to correct yourself.