Fall in love

One year down and I have realized that it is not so hard to find love.

It’s the making your love work with her love and making that love stronger than everything else in both your lives that’s the problem.

We’ll see how this goes.

when i was thirteen, i had a crush and wonderedif it was love. i didn’t know the girl that well, but i imagined i loved her.

when i was fourteen, i met a girl, and experienced going out with her. and how it was different – to be with one person and make memories only the two of you would have. and i thought maybe that was love.

when i was fifteen, that girl went out with anotehr guy; i felt miserable. i thought that feeling sad that she was gone might be a sign that i loved her. but i made myself get over her.

this year, i grew closer to her again. she told me she missed me. i thought that maybe things could work out. and i was still attracted to her. so i let myself draw her close. and we went out and we held hands and i slept for an hour on her shoulder and i thought that maybe that was love. but then i realised that i never felt like talking to her when we weren’t together, in person.

i don’t think i’ve found love. but i’m looking for it. and i think that every step along the way will bring me closer to it.