only eat when I'm hungry

I don’t know why I eat mindlessly sometimes.. I eat hurriedly.. in a rush for no reason.. and before i know it, the meal’s over.. and i’m left still feeling hungry.. my goal now is to really eat slowly, chew my food and taste every single bite that enters my mouth.. if i eat that way, i hardly overeat and can keep the weight off… I can do this… I just have to SLOW DOWN..

Ok.. So I’m still messing around with this.. Why do I have this feeling that I’m not doing things perfectly right when I am in fact eating only when I’m hungry.. I’m not sure if I’ve become a ‘perfectionist’ in the process that I’ll ‘beat myself up’ if I allowed a little pleasure once in a while.. I have to really calm down and tell myself it’s ok to taste something if I really want it. The most important thing is to eat smaller portions of foods I enjoy rather than to deprive myself and go and binge later. I’m really glad I’m over with the dieting and binging cycle. But there’s this fear in me.. the ‘What if I start again and can’t control myself.. ’ I need to trust myself more and support myself most during times like this. I realise that if I tell myself that I’m ok and I love myself and I can do this, I really can do it. If I constantly fear something, then that fear manifests itself.. So now this is what I say to myself. “Don’t worry. I’m here to support you. You’re not alone. Everything is ok. It’s just food. You can have it if you want it. And you can leave it if you don’t want it. Smileeee” :)

I’m still trying to find my balance… Some times I feel like just diving into a bag of chips… But I have to keep reminding myself that I’m only going to feel more miserable after the chips… I have to keep reminding myself that eating when i’m not hungry is only going to do harm to me and it will cause an inbalance within me… So I kick that thought of chips out of my head and go lie in the bed and sleep.

The whole of yesterday, I was only eating when I was hungry. It was quite a scary feeling. Previously I’d allow myself to eat anything at anytime I wanted. Now that I’m insisting that I truly feel hunger, be with it for a while and then eat, the feeling is kinda strange. I felt a bit threatened, then scared, then that queasiness in my stomach died off for a while, then I felt empty and finally very hungry and I ate. I guess that’s how it’s supposed to be. I’m going to continue giving myself the opportunity of eating only when I’m hungry.

Hi guys… I’m new here… but I’ve done this before.. it’s hard to follow.. sometimes the temptation is just too great.. but if I don’t eat only when I’m hungry, I just keep getting fat… and feel lousy afterwards… Anyway, now I’m trying to eat only when I’m hungry… It’s just been 2 days… I think i’m doing ok…