be a better girlfriend

Maybe this is a problem all new parents face. Especially new moms who spend every waking moment taking care of a baby or scrambling to find work. Or maybe it’s just me…I don’t know. But I’m not remotely interested in sex these days.

I feel horribly guilty about it, though R has not complained (much). I try to look after him in other ways – I make sure he gets plenty of time to do the things he wants, I buy him little gifts when I’m at the store, I try to find activities the three of us can do together, I tell him often that I love him. But none of that takes the place of physical closeness, and I know that.

I don’t know what is wrong with me. Sure, I’m tired, I’m stressed, and I’ve got a zillion things to do, but none of that used to interfere with my sex drive. I hope it’s a resolvable issue, though, because I don’t want this to ruin our relationship.

And he has my vote.

I try. I do. But A takes so much of my energy. As does scrambling to get work so I can stay home with her. And cleaning, paying bills, and feeding/bathing myself on a semiregular basis. R just…gets left out most of the time.

We’re having a date night this weekend. Our first since A was born. My parents will watch her so we can have an uninterrupted night of sleep. (Also my first since she was born.) R is looking forward to the sex. I, the sleep.

But I am trying to think like a woman again. Maybe sleep will help.