Things have been going quite well lately. I’ve told the manager at work I don’t want to work the late hours anymore and he agreed :D :D I never have to get up extremely early for college, so in the end I have enough time for myself, for sleep, a real breakfast, some real cooking at night…. I’m almost following something of a biorhythm and it feels like heaven, I wish I could have this all the time
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I know I hate people more when I’m extremely tired, they get so much sooner on my nerves then… but after going out for 1 night, i shouldn’t become a misanthrope right? I know I’m introverted, which can be a huge burden sometimes, but this is really not good… i wish i could be happy happy joy joy
sometimes i hate all people. Not all of course, i love my friends and my family. But sometimes i cannot see positive things in people, they’re so stupid and annoying.
I know they’re loved by their families and friends. I know that my family and friends may seem annoying and stupid to others as well. But i just can’t get rid of the feeling that this planet would be better off without humanity sometimes.
On other times, i only hate myself for such stupid thoughts. I wish i could be more positive and happy.
Some people say i’m always positive, and i know i can be, i can relate things to one another. But not always. I’m not here to make everyone feel happy when they’re down. I’m down myself sometimes as well. And now is such a time. And now i need someone to pick me up, to make me happy, to help me fight those sad thoughts.
I don’t think i’m really depressed. I just sometimes feel empty.