learn to dance

My last belly dance class was tonight and I was so unhappy. I couldn’t do so much of what we did and I tried to keep a positive attitude but I just sucked so bad I was embarassed. One woman next to me was undulating like crazy. I hate her. She moved her hips with absolute precision and I was so so so jealous of her. I decided she was my nemesis- the anti-Sadie. I’m sure she thought nothing of me. Except about how bad I was.

Apparently I can’t do anything while I’m walking and my ability to walk is even under scrutiny now. We learned to do whole body undulations and I was ok when we were stationary but we had to do them and travel, i.e. walk and I sucked. I also sucked at doing hip thingies while walking. These are pretty important and basic moves. My instructor is all grace and easy movements. I’m like a 5 year old who isn’t used to her own body- I’m jerky and awkward. Which I’m ok with, oddly enough. Though not ok enough with to continue past next session- at least, not right now. If I loved it I’d continue and practice like hell on my own and try to keep up. As it stands, I’m not motivated enough to put the work into it that it would take for me to be competent-partly because I don’t have good muscle memory partly because I’m not coordinated.

I started a mini session of belly dancing with my friend Heather. I loved the instructor and I like the fact that the class is limited to 10 people but I’m not sure how much I like the class. I was only embarassed about half the time, so that’s not too bad…

I’d love to be able to go to honky tonk friday happy hour and dance with confidence and grace. I asked a couple of friends to take country dance classes with me but one has a scheduling conflict and the other friend became all snotty because the country dance classes includes a small bit of line dancing. I think country dancing is a great place to start and I hope the next time classes start I can find a partner and actually take them and not just think about them.