feel better

for the past few days the thought’s been creeping up on me…I’m FEELING BETTER AGAIN! It feels like a fresh start.

It’s about two months (again) after re-starting this treatment. Last time, this is when I got derailed because we bumped up the treatment. So I hope not to have anything create havoc. I would really like to enjoy this for a lot longer!

keeping track of this goal is really turning out to be helpful.

At the beginning of this year I started a new treatment, and I was writing, mostly the positive, effects I thought I was having. But after a few months, for several reasons, I went through a change in treatment which led to what can best be characterized as MISERY for the past 5 weeks.

But after such time and trying other remedies, we’ve decided to resume the treatment started in Feb. Now of course I want to know what happened, what I can expect, etc. It’s been about a week and a half or a little more since going back and I just today have xstarted thinking maybe this will help. When I look back at where I was the first time, it was about the same.

The difference is I have to dig mylsef out of a much bigger hole. My symptoms are really bad right now. So it might take longer to get to a good place. Also, there are more environmental challenges in summer than winter (allergens, sun, heat, etc.) for me.

Continuing to, or rather, once again, hopeful….

It was about two months ago that I was making a lot of progress, but then got derailed by a bad reaction. I’ve been feeling bad again for over a month now and need to rejoin this goal.

I hope it won’t take months to recover, but when I see my entries from 3 or 4 months ago, I feel very hopeful.

Just need to keep the faith and patience that this IS the right treatment for me.

Keeping my fingers crossed!

I’m still understanding the things that make me feel better. The difference is that I’m actually DOING more of those things.

Last evening I went for an, albeit short, run. And though right then I didn’t feel anything, during the night and this morning I feel like there was a real change in my blood chemistry from the day before. I felt peaceful this morning. Even did a few yoga stretches. Which can only perpetuate the cycle!

Had a very good appointment with the homeopathy MD today. I feel like this new remedy is working in some ways, but I expressed my frustrations with my eating habits and worrying habits. I told him I see them as detrimental, but they are still there.

He said that sometimes things are funny with health. The “unhealthy” person might see their behaviors as normal, because they have always done things that way, while to the healthy person they might seem out of balance. Now that I am seeing what I do in these terms, and more objectively evaluate my own actions with food, it might mean the beginning of change.

It’s been about 2 weeks on this new homeopathy remedy. It’s also been no-coffee for last 4 weeks (okay, TWO cups of cofee in 4 weeks. That’s as good as NONE!). Between that the weather I’ve been feeling great…and it’s been a long time coming!

It’s hard to believe that the homeopathy treatment could actually be working. How ironic, right? I mean, I’m the one who chose to undertake it and yet I’m being skeptical about it. But I want it to last and I think I’m just keeping myself from getting my hopes up.

M-F, 5 days of sleeping and feeling well.

It’s an amazing feeling, like getting presents on Christmas!

Started another new remedy today. I hope this works (of course I hope that for all of them).

I’m going to also try other things to help. Such as, I’ve had no coffee or alcohol since Jan. 1…I’m going to add a few more things to that list soon.

Also, I need to be better about taking my Vitamins and Supplements. For whatever good they do, it’s worth it even if fractional.

To wake up and wonder what the point is. Of anything. I know it’s because I’m not feeling well, and when I get back to a good state I’ll feel more hopeful, but right now it’s hard. I can’t believe that feeling bad PHYSICALLY can be so draining MENTALLY.

Still not there. I wonder whether it will ever happen.