be good to myself

I went to the doctor to get the authorization to restart going to therapy. He noticed that my back and neck were too stiff and he ordered me 10 sessions of physical therapy. It has ben great !!! I arrive there and a very nice doctor puts cold and hot compresses on my back , then she applies a little bit of electric current to my sore muscles and the she ends with a little bit of ultrasound and some relaxing exercises. I haven’t realized how much of my tension was really physical. Next week I start the psychological therapy, I’m engaged to healing, to improve my life quality.

-Yesterday I couldn’t sleep trying (in vain) to finish a very important task, instead of freaking out I made use of my sick leave. I feel horrible for not going to work, but with all the warning signs I had last week I need this time to decompress and to catch up. I try not to see this as a failure , let’s say that it’s my way to do some necessary maintenance work to be on the road again.

Weeks of stress, carrying heavy bags and negelecting my own needs have finally taken their toll on me. Today I had to go to the hospital with a severe dorsalgia. I guess this is the way my body has to warn me, to tell me that I definitely need to decompress and relax, I need to lead a healthier life.

Though my finances are not great in this moment I’m going to travel with my friend Bibi to the coast next week. I ‘m sure that the sea , the sun and the good company will do wonders in me.