overcome my aversion to phones

I’m so rubbish at speaking to people who I’m emotionally attached to in one way or another. I just can’t say what I want to say, must be able to see their face! So long, long silences ensue. I think some people are getting a bit frustrated with me, but as I said, most communication is non- verbal anyway so phones are just evil… right?

and i thought i was the only one!

I hate calling people. Absolutely hate it. I need to see people’s faces in order to understand what they are thinking and feeling at that particular moment so phones are rubbish for socially inept folk like myself. If I plan to phone someone I have to actually write a scripted first line down, followed by bullet points of stuff I want to talk about, then practise the first line before I pick up the phone.

This organisation I’m volunteering for has me on the phone for most of my time there. Calling people I don’t even know- that is supremely the worst kind of calling. But its for a good cause, and may Allah swt make it easy for me to get over this irrational fear!