get a masters degree

I currently am following a syllabus of my own making cos my course syllabuses (syllabi?) suck big time. We’ll see what they make of my essays. I don’t care anymore. This new uni of mine is so stuck in the past that their opinion is entirely irrelevant to me.

I just need to keep focussed and realising that the work I put in on a daily basis really does lead up to the big MA finale next September. At the moment it all feels remarkably directionless but I just have plough on through until some sort of clarity reaches me, God willing.

this is so hard. i’m fighting against the course content cos its nothing to do with what i want to write my dissertation on. its killing me a bit and i’m just trying to fight the temptation to drop out and do an MA in Intellectual History instead. But my parents have already put too much into this for me to get cold feet now.

So I start my MA course next week, Early Modern English Literature. New uni, living back with my parents in London again- its all change and I’m scared, to say the least. May Allah make it easy for me!