Have a totally different life by this time next year

I sent a mail to myself in the future via http://www.futureme.org .I will receive it on 1st October 2009. i hope the mail gets me well. by that time, i will be in a different continent, experiencing new and unfamiliar culture, new food, new scenery, new people and a new phase of life.

it’s a self-reminder for myself from the past of what’s important.

October 1, 2009. I will wait for the day to come.

around this time, im leaving.

Can’t wait to start the new chapter of my life.

yearly gratitude and visualization list.

1. Studies are doing great.
2. Family bonds are growing strong ;)
3. Met new friends and got in touch with old friends.
4. Lost approx. 7+/- kgs.
5. Got jogging into my system.

1. Visualize getting a 4.0 for the coming semester.
2. Visualize that my social life in enhanced.
3. Visualize that I am able to handle the clubs well.
4. Visualize being financially free.
5. Visualize that I’m able to take a vacation elsewhere.

that is all. ;)

“if your life has to mean something, it must start today.”

it has been almost a year since i set this goal. i’m still in the same place, bearing the same routine, meeting the same people. but mentally, i guess i changed. not exactly as new person, but emotionally stronger, had better self-esteem and i lead a more fulfilling life now.

but i guess i need to do more to change the way i live. changing the way i live means changing how i think. changing how i think means changing what i have come to believe or accept about life. this is very hard. so hard that even when you so desperately want to change, you prefer to hang on to the misery because it is familiar and it is comfortable.

i guess there are basically 2 kinds of people: lions and sheep. 90% of us are sheep, because we like to follow the norm. the norm being our comfort zone. and comfort zone is where you get to drown slowly.

change requires risk. but how much are we willing to risk? the funny thing is- the thing we are so scared of risking are like dices in a board game, useless unless they are risked.

i want to change, for the better. take the risk. because YOUR life is not YOURS until you risk it.

feel like im static. not really moving forward in any aspect of my life. drift through the days, but the weeks, months and years seem to fly by without a pause. things are still the same they were a week, a month, a year ago.

life is flat lined right now. just going through the daily motions. no real direction, no real goal, no real passion. at my age, i should have already gotten some sense of direction in life, but no, i still feel like spoon-fed kid, living day to day, waiting to get out to the real world. only i’m already in the real world.

i need some motivation. need something to inspire me. need a change of scenery. need to find a passion.

i just want to have a totally different life next year.