be as bold and fearless as I can

getting there.

Going well. I like the way my life has been working recently.

I realized how much working at Safeway and working at the theater infringed upon my ability to enjoy my life…but I’ve realized that I don’t have to do anything that makes me unhappy just because it is expected of me. I shouldn’t do anything except what I want to do, regardless of what other people expect. It is a very liberating feeling, and I hope I can keep it up for the rest of my life. I went and saw Ray Rempt speak today and even though I couldn’t relate directly to what he was talking about (being uncompromising in talking about religion as he sees it), I got very inspired by what he said. I shouldn’t have to ever be any one but myself because I am afraid of what others expect of me…and I want to refuse to do that. In order to do that, I haveto be as uncompromising as Ray Rempt….I have to lose all fear of what other people think of me. Or if not lose all fear, be rational about it…why should I want them to be okay with me if I have to forfeit part of myself in order to do so? It’s a hard thing to do, but I think it’s worth it. If ever there was a good time in any one’s life to make doing so a habit, I think this is it. I think that maybe this could lead to the greatest and most lasting happiness I’ve ever known. How will I know when I;ve completed this goal? I suppose maybe it’s one of those things you just “know.” ..or at least that’s what I will go on for now.