love and be loved

I just met someone new and I think we are sort of dating. I really like him, which is hard for me, because it brings out a lot of my own insecurities and fears of messing things up. I already feel attraction and affection towards him…but worry that I desire too much to love and be loved that it will not make for a good relationship. Sigh.

I’ve reconnected with someone who I love very much. It is a good love – positive, encouraging, inspiring, emotional and spiritual. The person has been like a father-figure in the past and I admire him so much and am so inspired by how he lives and how he is so full of life.

Here is what real love feels like:
It inspires you to be the best person you can be

It fills you with hope

It brings deep peace and contentment

It is safe

It is an appreciation and enjoyment of a person just as they are

It removes pain

It is respect and admiration

It is the desire be there for the other person and support them

It encourages the development of self as a separate person

It is a feeling of timelessness

It is a sense of understanding, not always needing words

It is gentle, tender and healing.

I miss my boyfriend as it has been almost three weeks since I’ve seen him. I don’t know how I feel about him. I do care, but get so sad when I don’t get to connect with him. I suppose I am doing a loving thing this weekend by travelling to visit him where he is working out of town. I just get afraid that I’m putting too much into the relationship and maybe he still doesn’t want to get to know me and love the real me.

I love Gary, but due to circumstances, I cannot be with him. It is very hard, especially because I definitely felt a sense of loving and being loved with him, or at least being snuggly wrapped up in a safe glow of caring and peace. I do miss him and hope he is well. I have considered marrying him in the past, but the situation is very confusing and complicated. Just having him in my life with free expression and joyful caring would be enough. I miss him very much.