conquer Emetophobia

I found that Im doing SOOOO well with this. Its a lot easier, however, when the weather is good and no one is complaining about anyone puking on them, or vice versa. I do like to think that I got over the fear a bit on my own, and that the weather just helped me a bit. Its so weird, this thing.
But im proud of myself for having a fairly decent winter. I just hope my cleaning routines can stay where they’re at, and not cross that line into OCD. I really get into touble with that sometimes. I just cleaned the ENTIRE house and want to start over again. Ick.

This is getting there. Its only because there arent people around me dropping like flies like there were 2 weeks ago or a month ago. Its easier when the weather starts to turn and the sun is shining. One day I’ll be over this. I wont be afraid to get pregnant, and I’ll have kids that won’t be afraid of something so silly. I hope I can control that anyway.

face me everyday. No one understands that this affects my every waking second. Its weird…Some days are great. Like today, and then the smallest thing will set me off. Today..it was just stomach noises. It just drives me crazy. But Im working on sending out the positive. It sucks to have a major headache on top of it though. But today was good. And I Look forward to waking up now…trying to heal myself. Im grateful for those days I can wake up. :)

Its a constant mental battle everyday. I am exhausted every night for trying to train myself that “I AM FINE” and im not sick…Im an emetophobe, but I will not let it control my life..and i will be ok soon. Its really hard. And i wish people would understand…but unless you’re emetophobic, you wont get it. It sucks.

Having a really bad day..and not feeling good. not doing good with this goal today…at all. Could use some major boost. I wish this was understandable..i wish this was medically treatable..or i just wish i could get over it. God…this is horrible.

I just found a site where my phobia defines itself..and basically has a support group. Its amazing that Im not alone, and I had a really great day today. Despite knowing that people are dropping like flies all around me in this town from this sickness!!!! Im doing well….lets see how long it lasts.