I am almost 21 years old, 155 pounds and about 5’5”. I know i am overweight, but i am in denial about it. To be honest, i have really let myself go. I am comfortable enough around my boyfriend that i eat anything and everything and i am a huge stress eater too. Seems like i eat to get full, not to enjoy it. I have been struggling with an eating disorder since i was in 9th grade. I try and stop eating for days at a time then binge. I’ve tried diet pills, detox drinks, going to the gym, drugs, ect. Seems like i liked my body the most when i was hyped up on drugs. I know i wasn’t healthy but i liked the feeling of emptiness and shedding numbers off my body.
I would love to be on a complete straight road with more energy, more endurance, more self confidence, and to loose 40 pounds. I have looked up every diet there is and i know if i starve myself ill feel deprived and start binge eating. i have these tough issues i want to ignore but its hard when you’ve struggled with it for so long.
My boyfriend is a huge gym junkie. I love that he’s motivated and fit but i hate that i have to stand next to him being a fat whale. i want to be the skinny fit girlfriend he deserves. And i know i’ve always wanted it for myself.
I am going to start this new diet and i know it will be very hard for me. It’s called the acai berry diet. I bought it from costco and im hoping it will work for me. i will start going tot he gym and running every morning. i want to make it happen once and for all. I want to do this for me and the ones around me. i know i will love myself when i love the person i see in the mirror. HERE WE GO!!
