Stop being so hard on myself

Difficult, because as of right now I hate myself and everything about myself, soooo… idk how this is working.

I love people and I love things but I do not really love myself.
It sucks and I’ve cried so much in the past 2 hours that I’m surprised I did not throw up.

I’ve made some progress, however undulantly it may have been. I just feel like I’m such an annoying girl when I meet new people and it’s really hard to stop feeling that way.

this will never stop; i’m the lamest girl ever.

nights like this are what make this goal impossible.

I’m starting to think this is something I’ll just always have to deal with, but I’m sure I’ll manage.

Just stinks sometimes!

ABSOLUTELY SUCKED AT THIS TODAY. 100% SUCKED.

I feel like I’m getting better with this one…

only time will tell, BUT I don’t feel like as much of an idiot lately as I usually do so that’s good!

I think lately I have let up on the self criticism. Probably just because I’m too exhausted to find fault with myself hahahah. Sad.

oh well! For some reason this past week I feel like I’ve made a few personal discoveries that make me feel less insecure, or at least just know myself better, so I guess that’s a step forward for this goal somehow or another? haha OH WELLLLLLLL

In some respects I am getting better at this,
yet in others I am declining.

This is hard, like if I’m not being hard on myself I won’t notice.

Idk what will happen with this…

I just feel so dumb sometimes.