turn my life around

I moved to another state yesterday, start a new university tomorrow and on Tuesday I start a new job. I’m going to count this as done.

In 3 weeks I will be moving to another state, transferring to a new university and starting a whole other job! If this isn’t turning my life around, I don’t know what is.

I don’t know. My life has fallen apart. I have no job. I couldn’t go to school this semester. I feel like this is the perfect time in my life to do something amazing but I have no motivation. My life is literally a blank canvas right now. And I’m just holding the paintbrush staring at the paints but I don’t know which color to use.

I don’t like the person I am becoming. This shit needs to happen really fast.

I think I want to turn my life around in a lot of ways. I had an epiphany about two weeks when I realized a lot, they are kind of great but also not so great at the same time. I realized that I can’t pursue my dreams the way I have been living and the only way I can achieve what I want in life is by changing major things. I am a quiet person and most of the time I don’t smile unless there is something to smile about. For the most part I look like a rock. I have multiple reasons for being this way but I also think it is preventing me from so much. My barrier has kept everyone out and me from actually interacting with people. And while for the most part I am fine with this I think I have the capability to love people and help people. But my barrier and almost unfriendly personality hasn’t been allowing this. My personality hasn’t been showing and I would like it to show through more because I believe I have more to offer. Another way I want to turn my life around is by changing my surroundings. I am going to Ohio State in the Fall and I think it is going to change my life in so many ways. I am excited the things that come with that.