lose 30 lbs

Weight is ridiculous. Our fixation on weight and size is ridiculous. I may not be a bean pole, but I sure as hell ain’t a fat ass. I need to be grateful and pleased with what I’ve got and that is a healthy body which treats me well. Nuff Said.

I feel really good about this now. I mean I think the most important part of any goal or wish in life is to be mentally ready for it. In the past, I dreamed of being skinny, but for the wrong reasons. This meant that I didn’t really want to be healthy, I just wanted to be liked.

Now I realize that I’d rather be healthy into my old age and that the only way to avoid many many many health problems and pain in the future is to work out an hour every day. It also means that I need to have real proper nutrition, healthy nutrition. It means that my body is sacred and deserves the most healthy food and the best conditions.

This also means that I want to see just how amazing my body can be. I want to get in great shape so I can run marathons and compete in triathlons. I want to ride my bike long distances and hike up all the mountains surrounding my home. There are so many beautiful trails and areas that I may never see if I don’t get in shape and they are all an arms reach away.

It means feeling good about myself and being proud about what God has given me, not shunning it or wanting to look or be like someone else, a false idol in society.

Losing weight is more than just being skinny to me, it is being true to myself and allowing myself to be free of the bondage that comes along with unhealthy habits.

The only way to really lose weight is to exercise for at least an hour a day. I’ve finally come to face that. There is no easy way out. I tried Nutrisystem and it was discusting sadly. Other than having to shove the food down my mouth without throwing up, it was working pretty well as far as I could tell. I think the key for me is to just exercise every day for an hour and follow weight watchers counting plan. That seems to be the best way.

Now I just need to take that first step and get into gear. It is a permenant life change that is going to be great when I do it soon.

Today I started the Nutrisystem program. It seems really well set up and easy to follow. The website tools and support are awesome. It seems like it should be a fairly easy transition after the weight is off back into the real world where I will be in control of my own meals. It seems relatively simple.

Well I have seven days left and I am pretty sure I haven’t lost enough to really have met this goal. All I can do is start anew and hope for the best. Has anyone heard good things about Nutrisystem?

this isn’t going so well. sad.

I have been doing quite well at controlling my diet and being a good eater, until today. I ate two donuts after dinner. My parents house is the worst because there is temptation everywhere. It is hurtful to know that I have to restrict myself from certain environments. I need to get over this and move on. I am sucking at this goal so far and time is ticking.

I’ve lost 3 lbs. I am grateful for this.

someone i really admire told me i looked skinnier last night at a family party. i don’t know why he said it, but it helped me stay motivated. i can do this.

I’ve been eating a very small breakfast every morning just to get metabolism going, then I drink a vitamen water during the day and I have a couple of crackers for lunch. At dinner I eat a small healthy dinner and unfortunately I think this has led to eating a midnight snack, which I believe is holding me back. I feel pretty good about everything though.