date

sadly I took a break from trying to date. It was getting me down.

Tonight, a Saturday night, I sucked it in and went off to several bars. It’s hard when you’re on your own because you stand out. At one bar sat a nice looking woman and her friend. After figuring out that they seemed to be without boyfriends, I approached the one. Not an easy thing to do, but not that hard either. I talked freely with both of them, but it wasn’t flirty. I still can’t flirt. Unfortunately I ended up talking to the wrong girl. It was nothing but a discussion about her BlackBerry. They gathered up their things and left shortly afterwards.

The second bar I had visited earlier that night, but the first time I didn’t like the crowd. Too many full tables, not easy enough to spot singles. But later, one group went up dancing. But one or two stayed behind. Despite the fact that I’m a very poor dancer, I asked one to dance. It was a bit of a long shot because if she liked dancing should would have danced with her girlfriends. She said no. Then I asked her friend who just came back. She was willing, and likely drunk. But the song ended and the band started packing up. I gave her a pat on the shoulder and left the scene.

At least I did something. I’m proud of myself for that.

For several weeks I’ve thought about going to a NightClub. I hate NightClubs and I havn’t gone to one in years. But I had hoped that I just might get a chance to flirt and try to pick up someone. I havn’t done either in a long time. I need to learn how to flirt, maybe clubbing could be a way. Last night I could have gone but I decided not to. Maybe tonight.

Decided I’m not meeting enough people. I don’t like the internet dating, but what the hell. I put up a profile on the Lavalife. I even put one up in the Intimate Encounters part of Lavalife, and I know lots of my Outdoor Club friends are members, I wonder what would happen if the saw I was open to some riske’ encounters.

I sent off an email today to Sandra. I met Sandra this summer and we went on 2 or 3 dates. But she didn’t seem interested. Actually I wasn’t interested, but I thought she would be good practice to get into dating. She was awkward. It was awkward ending dates with her or encountering anytype of romantic moment. the only time we ever did was on a tight fitting mini train – on a seat probably meant for a child and an adult not 2 adults. The tight fit made snuggling easy.

anyway, I sent off an email to her, asking about a job for my roomate since they both are in a similar industry. Maybe Sandy will give me an email back. My practice girl, might come back. But more likely she’ll ignore it.

Last week I got into a discussion with the pharmacist, Jenny. It wasn’t until later that I realized some of the conversation (45 minutes) was kinda flirtatious. (horescopes, telling me that my 5 grey hairs made more attractive) Somehow she figured out I was single – when she said I need a woman to take care of me.

I wrapped up the conversation, and left without asking for anything. Then I came back 15 minutes later and asked Jenny for coffee. That was hard, but I pushed myself. Jenny had a boyfreind. I think she was sincere in saying that if it wasn’t for her BF she would have gone for the coffee, who knows for certain about the sincerity.

Not sure about online dating, didn’t work before, but it took forever for me to bump into a woman like Jenny. Not that I was really all that interested in her, but that she found herself a little attracted to me. Everyone in my age group seems to be married.

Got to get out more.