Quit picking at my skin

now I even have been picking at work. There is no logical reason to be doing this. I just like it when the white stuff comes out.

So yesterday I was picking at my skin on my face some more. I was procrastinating. Then I got a call to go to a party, I went, but I was embarrased at my red skin.

But it seemed worth it. Whatever high there is from picking at my skin is very hard to break.

decided to reset the no pick clock. Didn’t pick at my skin today. For some reason I just didn’t feel tempted.

On Day 6 I decided to pick. I didn’t really have anything to pick at, but once I started I found it too much to resist.

On Day 7 I started picknig again. No good reason. Although I just made my face red, it’s embarrasing. And I don’t know why I do it.

The best part of this was not only did I not pick at my skin, but I didn’t have an urge to touch my face and feel for a lump, which usually gets me picking in the first place.

However, it’s Sunday, I didn’t do anything but put on my jeans this morning, no shave no nothing. So other than brushing my teeth I wasn’t near a mirror.

Over the past couple of days I hardly touched my face, just for a second or two, and not in front of a mirror. yesterday wasn’t so great. I noticed that I had a little whitehead. I tried the cream the pharmacist gave me. I gave the whitehead a little (so as not to make it red) squeeze.

But then came the more difficult part. so often I give something a squeeze and then I look in the mirror for something else to squeeze. This time I couldfeel myself doing that and I walked away.

well, it seems not looking in the mirror seems to work. I looked for a second then I wanted to pick. There was one little bump, a tiny clogged pore that I lightly squeezed. It didn’t bruise. I almost started searching, but then realized I was about to fall into the pattern, not to mention I have a job interview tommorow, so got away from the mirror as fast as I could.

I went the day without picking – almost. several times I touched my face but did nothing. But then in a non-thinking moment i gave my nose a small squeeze and 3 pores released their white stuff. I didn’t even realize until after I did it. But the good part of the day was when I saw the mirror, thought about looking closer but walked away. My skin picking seems to go better when I shave each day. If I skip a day or 2 for the weekend my skin seems to have more bumps in it – and I can resist those.

I went through my day almost without picking at my skin/pores – almost. At about lunch, while sitting at the computer I felt something that could be pores and I gave a small squeeze. I didn’t realize I was even doing it. However, I consider the day a victory, because I didn’t do it in front of the mirror.

I don’t have too many problems with pimples or anything. But I’m addicted to sqeezing pores. I do it when I’m bored. It makes my face red. When I do get a pimple, I can’t resist. I try not to look in the mirror because then I notice the white part (not a white head) under the pore – and I know if I squeeze that pore the white stuff comes out, and somehow I feel like I cleaned up my skin. My nose is the worst. The cream stuff from store doesn’t seem to work, or if it does it takes a long long time. I need my pores to close up.