be happy

One of the greatest things in the world is to spend a nice evening with friends surrounding you. For my birthday last friday I had just that.

I had dinner with six of my bestest friends at a wonderful restaurant – where they make an awesome chocolate cake dessert(!) – and afterwards went to see fireworks and ride a rollercoaster or two at the local carnival. I couldn’t stop grinning and laughing the entire evening.

I now own a photograph that has my three best girlfriends – who don’t really know each other and all live in different cities (but they all came for my birthday!) – and me on it. I’ve always wanted that and now I can’t stop looking at it.

Right now, three days later I am still delirious with joy just from the afterglow. :-D

Last friday night I must have been the happiest person on earth.

I saw Pink live, yesterday in Hamburg. She made me feel carefree and happy. Need I really say more? :-)

... if I look over my last entries and find a definite, pessimistic, angry and hopeless meaning to them all. I guess I’m just really really nervous lately about everything career-realted and that takes over other parts of my life.
But on a day to day basis, I’ve had some pretty happy ones in the last 2 weeks. They were mostly tied to small things and situations, people and all that, and maybe I haven’t paid as much attention to these positive things as I do to the negative ones – that I have to admit, are kind of heavy. Still. I have to be more relaxed about my bachelor thesis, or the next months I am going to be a wreck of nerves and filled with frustration and anger.

So. What to do? I guess I’ll have to make sure that whenever I get to the point where I want to throw something out of the window over my thesis, I have to calm down and TELL myself that it’s going to work out alright, and even if it doesn’T, it’s not the end of the world. Juuuust relaaax…

Yesterday I was walking from one part of the city to another cuz I had missed a bus, and I crossed a bridge. I was walking slowly to enjoy the sun on my face and the view of the river. In the river below, there were literally hundreds of ducks, and I noticed they were all very intent on reaching the shore, where a couple was walking by.
They were amused and slowed and it was just such a silly situation. They noticed me watching from about 150 feet away and I realized that I was grinning and then we all grinned at each other, watching the ducks, and I waved and the guy nodded his head and I went on and was really pretty happy with the world.

So happiness doesn’t always have to be a profound concept, it can just be about ducks. :)

at being happy. I was, once upon a time. Now I tend to be sad about a lot of things and am very unhappy with so many aspects of my life that I don’t see how it can ever get better most of the time. But self-pity is depressing in and of itself.
I am trying to tackle one problem at a time and I can feel it making a difference. I am confident that my life will continue to improve through changes that are slowly happening. I think achieving a few of the goals that I just set for myself will really help!