get in shape

went hiking tonight. it took me twice as long for some reason… i was tired, it was a pretty hot day, still hot at night too.

i went hiking cinco de mayo and also last night.

i went hiking. it took soooo much willpower to get out of the house. i was set on napping and ruining my schedule completely, but that nagging voice finally got me to get up and have some fruits and a bit of protein. it took me twice as long as it used to take me (i’m way out of shape!). i took 4 breaks, had a bit of a cry when i saw how beautiful orien’s belt was (and i was probably friggin tired too). sang my head off to my headphones, completely in the dark by myself on this trail in the desert. i didn’t think it was going to get dark, but that’s what being so out of shape meant. the good thing is, the next workout will be easier than that was.

i’ve been at this point before. purple in the face. and then 2 weeks later after doing it everyday, i can do it with my eyes closed, tired or not and it’s a beautiful experience.

i went with a group this time, we HEARD coyotes this time. they said they’ve been seeing them all week also. the pace was really fast and we took a bunch of trails i wasn’t familiar with. it was HARD, lots of hills and inclines, but i made it!

went hiking and saw the pack of coyotes again! they were running after a rabbit and howling. i decided to turn around, so, i did 1/2 of my hike. they’re just coming up too close for comfort and it gets dark fast after the sun sets.

i went hiking this weekend, but only half of what i used to do. i thought i saw someone riding a mountain bike in front of me, but on closer inspection, it was pack of 5 coyotes! so naturally, i decided to turn around, because the sun was setting and i didn’t feel like being stalked by coyotes in the dark.

i know what i’m supposed to do, i’m just not doing it and it shows.

i was reading an article that inspired me though, to do EVERYTHING right. down to making my bed, going to sleep on time, picking out clothes to wear for the next day… things i normally ignore.

maybe if i did EVERY little thing right, the get in shape/diet part would just seem natural.

it’s kind of hard to picture going through the day unstructured and follow a structured diet/workout plan…

one thing i did this week though was realize just how sensitive i am to sugar and how bad i feel when i crash. so i now have my tea without sugar, have completely given up coffee (with tons of creamer and tons of sugar), drink more water, etc.

i still crave all kinds of food and can’t stop eating the wrong kinds though. i’m going to try to load up on a bunch of diet food this weekend. bannanas, yogurt, veggies, etc and see if I can figure out some kind of structure that works and keeps me satisfied.

and exercise.

went hiking this weekend… 43 degree weather. it was pretty hard for me the way up, took a couple breaks, but by the time i came down, i was like “why did i stop doing this?” i absolutely forgot how much i love putting my headphones on and singing my head off in the middle of the desert. i saw a HUGE rabbit crossing the trail today.

i saw this mantra online: “get up, kick ass, go to bed, repeat”. i said that to myself today as i woke up :)

i’ve also been thinking “food isn’t going to leave the planet anytime soon” and “cheating on your diet, sets you back an entire week”, both of which i saw online.

i actually (dun dun dun… did the unthinkable) used my exercise ball today, at home, on my own, while waiting for hot water to boil for my tea…

i’m still pretty up there weight-wise though. it’s very uncomfortable right now being almost at my highest :( i can’t look at ANY part of my body at the moment without absolute disgust.

i’m currently going back and forth with exercising a little then binging alot. trying to break out of it, the scale is going absolutely nowhere. but at least i’m actually attempting to exercise… hopefully it becomes habit soon and i fix the eating too much thing.

i’m determined to go hiking this weekend.

Went hiking with family.
I’ve gained 20 pounds in 3 months, haven’t really been exercising much. I’m about 10 pounds away from the highest weight I’ve ever been.
I hope to incorporate exercise into the new year again and get that weight off!