motivate myself

that’s seriously an accomplishment for me lately.
i went to a bunch of stores, returned stuff, exchanged stuff, had a pretty good time looking around and just being out of the house. anxiety free day!

i was at a photography event, one of my hobbies and most favorite things to do ever with awesome people. i was completely unmotivated to talk to anyone or even take pictures of my favorite place in the world.

i actually at one point just sat down on the ground, when i said i’d help out with greeting people and stuff. i wanted to just plug my ears, close my eyes, but i managed to keep it together.

i guess i’m going to call it a “focus word” or a “motivation phrase”.

whenever someone says “come on”, either in a song or in real life to me, it gets me pumped and motivated.

beats me how that works on a subconscious level. all i know is, those are my motivation words. i have to HEAR them, not see them. i guess you can HEAR passion and someone cheering for you, even yourself. you can whisper and you can shout. both with entirely different and powerful messages.