Make 2009 My Best Year Yet

Had my heart broken last night, and have logged onto 43things.com only to find that some sadistic people who have made this a goal. Have come to the conclusion that boys are gay, and should die. After he drops his little bomb shell, I was said that was okay, that we could still be friends(being mature about this). He’s like… “how do you feel about me”, what does he want from me?

methinks I’ll hit on the boy who was flirting with me the other night… he looked like a nice rebound boy

...Good thing I wrote my goals for this month yesterday morning ey?

Last month I completed all of my goals, so that’s something, I like goals.

Body
This month is the month I finish the job and come out with toned flat stomach which back muscles.

I’ve found out the hard way that exercising modulates my mood as well, so I swing less, I’ve lost weight since I’ve gotten home 3 kg all up

Portfolio
By the end of this month this will be completely done and ready to be handed in
I will start studying for the prac exam, beginning by printing out all the information
Sort the loose notes in my room

HouseWe’ll have a house by the end of this month to have fun crazy times in :)

Have a great Christmas, I really did have a great Christmas, I actually was surprised by that haha, that’s not a lie

Relationships… the goal I wrote yesterday has died in an epic fashion… so I’m going to play this one by ear, (update, I tried but I still like him and it still hurts. Still talk to him heaps and it sounds like something may happen in the future, but right now I realize I need to give myself some space, there is no rushfriends I’m going to continue talking heaps with all the girls, make sure they’re all right Send stuff off today to H and K
had a fight with H and K the other day… it was stupidity on both sides, I’m glad it happened and we realised what was really important at the end, I do miss the girls a lot, aren’t I a clingy friend. Yet despite this I know that these girls are the best friends I’ve ever had

Album- finish college album, and start on album for Mum and Dad

Save- Aim to save 1000 this month, through creative budgeting and getting a job, I sent off several applications last week

saved $958 so far, using the C account rather then BT one
Finish this year off in an epic way, go out with a bang :)

Academic- study hard for the exam
- draft portfolio ideas; organise additional references/evidence, email Tamsyn

Body- go hard, just do it, get that tiny waist, don’t leave college without a fantastic looking body; not how I expected, but I’m pretty confident with my body currently, very happy- buy some 30 + moisturiser suncream… – got home and found some… I talked to lady to bodyshop and she said on the days when its necessary just use proper suncream, so I’m doing that

Romance- do that crazy fun romantic thing, see where it takes you, its organised for this thursday. I’ve now done this and it was amazing, best date I’ve ever gone on, I had a ridiculous amount of fun

Social- go crazy, go out and have at least 2 massive nigts saw the sun rise twice, run into a number of very entertaining backpackers. I’ve now had three, I love dancing

House- organise house hunting activity

Save
- save $800 saved 500… need to go hard to get the rest…Just moved across 200, but this means some fancy budgeting… I think I may just be able to make this goal if I’m stingy for the next few days

skydiving- go skydiving, decide which place, book it, next thursday

Summer- pay off rest of Thailand

Onwards :)

I’m in the middle of a week off so I’m taking the time to enjoy every bit of it, its so nice. Unfortunately I soon shall have to return to the world of doing stuff, though this little escapade has been amazing.

Academic
time to get back into study mode, keep on top of all lectures, particulary anatomyfinish assignmentfinish projectstart drafting ideas for the portfolio

boysfigure out the mess i’ve gotten myself into… soon, (it wasn’t my fault I swear!)

girlsgo out and make time for them all, talk to H particulary

body
turn my body into a gorgeous bikini thing, get a toned stomach

moneysave it, I’m aiming for at least 600 more away in savings by next month

thailand/travel/summerfinish paying off Thailandfigure out rest of Summer plans, finalise dates for skydiving with Cfigure out how much girls want to have a summer house…figure out rough plans for where I”m going to be, and whether getting a job/organising work experience is feasible

moving outset down ground rules for boys and the likestart looking at houses and getting preferences

meditation
not doing this much, but I’m glad I actually somehow have started to see a nice balance

onwards…

Instead I think I’ll just write a few random things that have happened.

Been on a bit of a boy rollercoaster. Why is it when they come, they all come at once? what is that? What’s wrong with staggering it out? Why is it they can make you feel so wonderful and joyful, but then snatch it away and replace THE “dull ache”. How is it that the dull ache can just go away with an sms, and make you feel happy all day long… argh. What is with the two voices in my head going “yes that sounds like a fun cool idea, do that” and the “no that’s a freakingly bad bad BAD idea”

damn hormones, whose screwed up idea was it to invent those??!

Friends, I’ve actually come out what could have been a confrontation with a good friend due to a grown misunderstanding. It all came about because we didn’t make the the time to share what was going on. As we didn’t know what was going on, we couldn’t understand/share/help, and we couldn’t support each other. I feel annoyed I almost let that slip away. Its horrible that if you don’t make the time, resentment can build up, kind of scary what I was thinking this morning, and how I think now after ONE decent conversation.

The girl I babysat broke down this morning. She was late for choir, left lunch at home, didn’t call her mum, couldn’t find her puffer and forgot to lock the shed. I was able to fix all of those things in half an hour… reminded me that the world is never as big as you think it is.

I’ve been working on my body, its good, I have a new way to see if I’m working, I start hating gym instructors half way through… its full proof.

Thailand is booked, paid for most of it, now I can start thinking about the house and what we can do WOO!

I’ll leave the rest for next month

I’m feeling pretty awesome at the moment, life at the moment is sweeet

Body
This exercise and diet is soo good, I love it, lost 2 inches off my waist which is sweet. Want to continue to do this until I get down to 24-25 inch waist. I can do it, I’ve done it before, but this time I’m going to do it with exercise and in conjunction with other goals. So this month, continue to exercise every single day, continue to monitor calories. Wow the world :)

Academics
Okay… had an uber nice break so its time to get back into it. Its all about balance and remember you do have the time, you’ll be happier to do it when you keep the other aspects of your life alive and well
- keep lectures up to date
- finish assignment
- finish an awesome group project

relationships
say hello to friends (as if I wouldn’t lol), make an effort with group, and people outside of college
have a date tomorrow… hope things go well fingers crossed... and if they don’t, I hope something equally awesome comes along… my love life is getting admittedly quite sad.

Thailand
book it

skydiving
book it

guitar
make some time to do this

Its funny I’ve really struggled to get into academics this session but now I look back on my goals for the last month… I didn’t really want to. Now I feel energised and excited about diving into work whereas this last week or two its been a real struggle… I’m so glad I keep doing this review…

I feel I got off track with this goal, not really focusing on whats important and subsequently losing my way

I’m on a 3 week break at the moment, so the majority of this month will be spent on holidays and the like. So not so much of an academic focus.

Body
Its time to focus on my body, it needs work, I’ve let it go. So every day this month I resolve to do pilates and an hour of high intensity exercise. Its hard as its cold at the moment, but I know changes will occur when I exercise and I want them soo much.

Academic
finish teamwork comments
write and research a possible negotiated assignment, I’ve got a few ideas, but push them through a bit more
don’t think about academics so much

photoalbums
finish yamba captions and buy the book
make an album for Mum about what us kids have been up to in the last year

Sky diving
organise a date with the university and book it

Thailand
book flights and decide on which tour group to go with

Guitar
practice at least 20 minutes every single day

Meditate
10 minutes EVERY DAY!

The hardest one by far will be my body, its a bit of a uphill battle, but I know that I have plenty of time to work on it and changes will occur if I make them. The rewards that I can achieve far outweight any effort I don’t want to put in now.

My reflections tend to be very long, so I’ve put that on my blog and kept this post for current goals

Academic
Finalise my P+ assignment and project
get 75 or above on the exam

Relationships
Do somehting romantic this month, flirt with someone cute
Make Kaitlyn’s birthday special, go out and have fun

Me
Do something fun for my birthday… maybe organise sky diving for sometime later this year

Thailand
Start playing with ideas of what to do

Gym + posture
... go, its not hard, its not far, just go, you like checking the hot guys in the gym out

Guitar
Finish blackbird, learn another two songs, impress family with songs

Anxiety
Refuse to give into it… its pointless and achieves nothing, be happy, you have an awesome life, be happy lol :)

Do something utterly random and slightly stupid, make it a story to tell people.

Just spend the day doing nothing after my exam… and feel a bit muggy (as I usually do when I do nothing :p ) So I’m going to do some stuff after I write this. Just to keep me going… I also just took an iron tablet so that gave me a jab of energy :) ... anyways. My last post was a bit long so I’m just going to keep my review to my blog and post my goals here to keep me going

Academic
Finalise arrangements for ILP, Submit proposal to committee
Finalise immunisation requirements for hospital
Conduct and Complete a P+ Communications Assignment
Keep on top of lectures; type up notes in a book for exam, aim to get a distinction in the next exam
Have a P+ draft completed for group project

Body
Do some exercise, minimum is a 10 minute walk/dance

Guitar
Finish learning good riddance (hope you had the time of your life)
learn all the chords
learn another song proficiently

Room
Clean it, and keep it spotless… it was a lot better this month then last exam period, but it still needs a lot of improvement, this is task no. one for today

Relationships
Keep talking and hanging out with girls…
find a hot guy and flirt with him
hangout with my group more
CALL DAN!

Meditation
This stuff is powerful stuff… keeps me relaxed and affirming makes things happen. I aim to keep on and increase the amount of visualisation I do to achieve my goals

Photo Shoot
be hot :)
get enough sleep

Practice Perfect Posture at all Times

Complete goal 30

Print photos and put on the wall
Make a photo book

Make a Personal Travel Map

smile smile smile

I just smashed my goal of having $10, 000 in savings, that was a goal for the year, not this month!

This is so good, I’m fiddling with the idea of getting a term deposit for some of it… hmm, we’ll see

today is an excellent day

I feel a little bit down at the moment, just my mood though :)

Wow this month… I still can’t believe the life that I do live

Review of March
Academic
I did one practice communications tape- awesome ness, I’m pretty happy with the outcome as well
my assignment, mostly done- woah… weird
I definitely do know the first scenario of the course well, I’m a bit behind on work, but I can definitely catch up, I’m so much further ahead then I usually am, which is awesome

Overall- academics gets a big pat on the back

Body
utter miserable fail, ugh, I went out more, got sick and had to recover, I was going to the gym well at the start of the month, fell off when I got sick, but its 100% time to get back into it

Meditation
Been little bit below average on this goal, but continuing to affirm. Clearly the morning is the time to do it though, to motivate me for the day. This means having a bed time and sticking to it… I think my bed time will be 11:30 from now on. Especially on weeknights… the exception will be when I’m talking with the girls, because I love my girlies

Room
To be honest, my room is looking pretty freaking awesome… I still have things I want to do with it, but yeah awesome job

haha lol

Relationships
okay… lets see- I totally broke up with Carl… argh I can’t believe that was within this month, but I do think it was for the best- I did feel regret but it just wasn’t going anywhere… and I totally didn’t care enough. It was for the best

Cameron was hilarious, never had a love triangle like that before, that’s awesome
I have also let myself have a few crushes, which I think is important for me in learning how to juggle work with relationships- I still tend to get thrown by either one or the other… but I’m definitely improving

Girls
I love my girls, we’ve had 3 awesome outings and live inside each other’s worlds, I love it. We’re all a bit stressed this past week but we’ll be fine :) we’re going to be excellent actually

Savings
This month has been a big expenditure month, and I didn’t reach my target for savings, but I think that is okay. I didnt waste money, it all went to a good cause so overall good.

other things
I got involved in the Campus Cat Coalition as well

GET TO DO my Independant Learning Project next year! I am soo excited, I can’t wait, its going to be sooo good

I started taking a medication I have been meaning to take for a while, and I’m glad I’m doing it, – tick tick

I started dancing again, it is so worth it, its such an awesome class and I think I might enrol in some more, we’ll see

Met up with Penny and Mark, and had an excellent time with them :) this is really good and got a giant lily plant! exciting!

talked to kids about going to uni, it was really nice, its such a great program to be involved in

I feel soo much better already, okay ONWARDS APRIL-

Academic
I will ace my exam, the distinction is totally coming my way
as well as putting final details on my assignment and do some work on the project
I will find someone to do a practice communications tape on, :) should be fun

Body
start going to the gym again, start back on abs again
go to at least one class
run run run
treat my body nicely in relation to alcohol
GO TO SLEEP!

Meditation
Try to meditate every morning, look into the class offered by the uni…
think about starting Meditaiton course offered by Sports

Creativity
Print photos, think about photo album and start creating one

Room
Spend 15 minutes each day cleaning the room, treat it as if someone hot is going to come in
leave my door open when I am in it

People
continue loving my girlies, make more friends, get out there more, remember that when tired you feel utterly crap and compensate :)
keep excursions going, they’re fun and exciting

Smile and remember all the good stuff that is around :) beauty is all around us and its up to us to recognise it

- xx