weigh 50kg or less on my birthday

and that’s eating whatever I desire.

Today was awful. I ate and ate. I ate a whole packet of rice crackers, and all this tuna and carrots and chips, and bananas and pears. It was a binge.

but meh. weight is just a meaningless number on the scale.

im bouncing back and forward on this one

So I’m having carrots for dinner =)

3 pieces bread with vegemite (330 cal)
strawberries (150 cal)
carrots (150 cal)
tuna (200 cal)
tuna (200 cal)
carrots (200 cal)

Total of 1230. Which is okay and healthy. Let’s keep it at that.

much better than the previous

and today i was 53.1KG!!! How evil! I’m never eating either again.

This year is just too much like last year. It feels like I’m reliving the failure of last year, only worse. It’s upsetting and I can’t break the cycle and become motivated. I’m just… empty. I have no hobbies, no passions, nothing… What have I done with myself? I feel like I live just to pass the time.

I’ve had a vegemite sandwich (250 cals), some steamed carrots (150cals), some grapes(50cals), and some tuna(200 cals). Gosh, it seems a lot when I write it down.
EDIT; I got hungry and had another 2 pieces of bread with vegemite (250 cals)
I plan on having some strawberries later.. Those should be around (300 cals).. So today will be around 1200. Darn, I hate myself. I’m goning to get fat eating too many carbs.