write poetry again

Why I’m running into this writers’ block all the time
- I am writing too little
- I am reading too little
given the crazy schedule in term it isn’t too surprising. But most importantly I am shy to write about what I really want to write about, or rather, if I’ve written something I don’t know who to show it to because I’ll get embarrassed.. either the person doesn’t understand what I mean and I have to explain =| or (for better or worse) the person does understand what I mean and.. argh, it’s just embarrasing..
.
Ah well. This is what I wrote fairly recently.
(the dots are just placeholders)
.
If we could have more time
.
.
.If we could have more time
.to find out about each other
.to find what we really want
.
.If we
....could have more time
.together
.not wanting to be elsewhere elsewhen
.happy in this moment
.
.If we could have
.......................more time
.with each other, happy and easy
.....not rushing, not late
...not waiting
.not tired
.
.If we could
...drift to a no-man’s island
.....where clocks have no more meaning
........where we shall mark our days
....in each other’s arms
.fallling asleep and waking.
.
.
.But we have
......................no time left
.
.drifting
........................wandering
.
.on our own
.
..............don’t
.you wonder
................I wonder
.
.if
...............we could have more time
.

I did write some poetry this year. (jeez, year) It was when my grandpa passed away, but I couldn’t be home because I have exams and I need to take a plane to get home.

It will be great if I could crystallise more happier thoughts into words though. I mean, I scribble frequently on my xanga, but that’s partly written to be read, in a broadcasting newsfeeding way, rather than just to express myself. But it’s so easy to just spiral into meaningless rant when writing just for yourself. I should find a poetry writing group or something.. though I feel a bit shy cos I haven’t written for so long, and everyone else might be really keen and take it really seriously. (anyone who turns up to a poetry writing group must be rather keen, no?)