~*~ HaVe A PeAcE AnD JoY DaY ~*~

“You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
call to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting –
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.”
— Mary Oliver

I’ve realized that when we take the dross out of our lives and when we let go of things that weigh us down, we can’t help but be blessed.

It’s been a long road but I have just gotten my disability. Nope we won’t be rich by anymeans but this money is sure going to help the kids. Especially with one on her way to college this year. I am blessed coming and going and I am so VERY thankful.

I want to thank all of you who sent me messages, comments, thoughts, healing and comforting energy. Thank you for visiting my dads memorial web site and leaving messages so for my family.

I can’t thank you all enough for holding me during this time. I hope that I am there for you just the way you’ve all been there for me.

In our dark times, our friends surly shine.
Many blessings for you all.

If anyone would like to see some serious dorky, dumbo ear pictures of me when I was a little kid and some handsome pictures of my daddy. Feel free to visit his site and take a look. You just might get a laugh out of them. It’s on the right, click picture gallery.

You are all also very welcome to light a candle or write something.

Danny Ray Buckley

Thank you all so very much.
Light and Love

September 14 my dad left this earth for a better home.
My sisters and I were with him, mom, his sisters, grandkids, great grandkids.

I prayed while holding my dads hand and I had the chance to tell him how proud of him I am. My dad didn’t have a easy life none of his life, but he rose up from that and made his name worth having.

I’ve had the feeling of freedom coming all day and I know that my dad is free. NO more pain, no more suffering. He is free.

I alternate between peace in that freedom and this crazy numbing slicing pain that I don’t have my dad anymore. I know this is not new, we all have gone through it, or we will go through it.

However each pain is unique in it’s self, because it’s US who lost OUR parent, our loved one. I respect that. I am very thankful for everyone who has reached out to us and helped us in every way possible.

I think it’s because I’ve been believing, praying, hoping for peace and comfort to be all around my family.

I’m not going through all the details, but a week ago my dad went to the Hospital and they put him in ICU that night. The next morning they sent him home with Hospis telling us that he has less then two weeks to live.

We’ve spent or are spending all the time we can with dad. I know so many of you have gone through this and are praying for us. I feel that we are blessed, God has blessed us with a peace and comfort. NO, it isn’t easy by any means.

I just have this feeling of freedom coming and that is what I am holding on to. My dad will be free. No more pain, he can walk and breath again.. He will be free.

Thank you all for caring for me/ us and for sending good energy, reiki and prayers. I don’t think I could make it through this with out all of that.

I love my rocks. Anyone who knows me even half way, knows I love my rocks.

I’ve been given some amazingly cool rocks, crystals and gems over the years and they are all in my room displayed in a really cool holding thingy.

I’m proud of them and the energies that come from them is amazing.

There is this man, whom I have known for 5 years. We had a sort of a one night fling 5 years ago. And for the past 5 years we have remained friends and he has come to see me. Always asking me to go out with him, or he would just sit outside with me and talk for hours.

Shhhh… sometimes he would try to steal a kiss or hold my hand and I was in a relationship and would always make him stop, cause I’m a good girl.

Well I am no longer committed right. RIGHT… So when he asked me to lunch one day, I shocked him by saying yes.

Long story short. We have been talking and communicating and kinda hanging out a bit. I am going to call him Rock man {Thank you She and Artie seconding the idea}

He is a driver for a company in my town he is from here, lived here his whole life. When he was on the road last week I asked him to pick me up a rock in CA and NM {states I have never been to} so on Tuesday he comes to see me.

He runs back out to the car to get my rock, when he come into the room he says Seren look I have your rock {all big smiles} he didn’t have a rock he had a fuckin’ boulder.

check that sucker out, it’s sitting next to my book shelf in my bedroom.

He smiled all big when I got excited about it.. HB told me he brought rocks for his kids and has one in his bedroom. He loved the idea of having a piece of the Mojave {did I spell the right} desert.

I think I like Rock Man.

EDIT... In light of the thread, HB will now be called Rock Man if he is ever talked about again. Cause that is a better name thanks to She naming him and Artie seconding it. It’s settled.

There is NO peace and there is no joy.

My world just crashed in around me and I have nothing but shattered pieces to look at and walk through.

I would appreciate it if anyone who has ever cared about me, anyone who has ever had me help them in even the slightest way. I am asking you to pray for me, I am asking you to send healing energy, good vibrations.

My life as I knew it is over and the plans I’ve made the past 4 years are done and gone. All in a letter nicely written and delivered at 6.45 this morning.

How I will make it through this and my fathers sickness I will never know. I just don’t think I’m going to make it through this.

Pray for me. I don’t think I’m going to make it through all this, it’s far to much for my spirit.

What has traditionally been known as the Strength card represents Nature which, however wild in its primal form, is tamed by our subtler, finer (feminine, interior) self. The will and passion of our instinctive nature does not need to be broken, but refined and brought to consciousness so that all levels of Creation, inner and outer, may come into harmony.

The feminine soul-force contains a persuasive power that can nurture and induce cooperation from others, stilling disruptive energies by harmonizing differences in the spirit of collective good will.

LUCKY NUMBER: 3

I did a private swap with a young lady from Germany {Meike} She wanted some earrings and a bracelet {seen them on flickr} so in return I asked for foliage from Germany.

I just love the flowers she sent me, I cried they were so pretty. This is a page out of my “Mood Journal”.

in a rapid none fixable way. I feel like I am the only one who sees this and the only one who cares.

Such is life.