Get My Pap Smear

your prayers and your well wishes. Thank you special person for the text messages and pictures designed to make me laugh.

It will be almost three weeks before I get the results.

I have to have some other test run. Lab work, test for
{endometriosis}.
I have to have a mammogram.

So looks like Seren gets to see more Dr’s.. and More needles.. OH what fuckin’ joy.

Today is the Exam. I will not find anything out today, it will still be another week.

I reserve the right to not share the results with anyone.
I have made the promise to only two people, I will keep my word. I am big on promises.. I will not break those.

Depending on what they tell me, I won’t post it.

I am very nervous. I am scared, I have been going through some real difficult emotional things lately. I’ve never felt this way before and it is only compounding everything else in my life. I am just scared.. So much is at stake..

Ahhhh…. sigh, double… Time to get ready to spread ‘em.

for next month.

Nothing like putting it off for another month right.
I have found lumps on the nodes in my arm pit. I am certain of what they are. Had it before, not so happy with it all now though.
I have to remember to let them know about that. Well, they will find it when they do the breast exam.
I have to tell them about the bruising. It has become more and more severe. At first I thought I was just anemic. That’s not it.

so seems I have a couple other things to mention to the Dr..
joy joy…

It has been over a year since I had the last one. I am not suppose to go no more than a year.

When I got cancer, I had only one missed visit. Only one.
Pap….... no pap….... pap, cancer.

Once I knew what was going to take place I started telling every women and man I could. The importance of having this test is unbelievable, it is not just about genetics anymore. HPV is a virus, I did not get cancer from HPV.. My best friend did, she is young and has only been with one man. I bitched and I bitched until she went to the Dr… A week later, she came crying to me.. They would have to do the same procedures on her as they did with me.. {we even had the same Dr.} I went with her to all of her appointments, for two years. I moved and she is still fighting. it has been another year, she wants children, other wise her fight would be over.. She is trying to save her reproductive organs {her decision, yet three years is a long time to go this road, it is hard very very hard}.
Another great wonderful lady I have known since she was 10 {21 years I’ve know her} She credits me {not really, just talking getting the word out} for saving one of her friends lives.

When they found the tumors on my ovaries, It was a freak thing. I was volunteering for the MRI unit we had just got, they needed to set protocols. I asked for a A/P {abdomen pelvis} I knew something was not right, I could feel it in my body.So I let them do the MRI on me.
When My friend {the radiologist called me at home and told me to come back to work {ummm worked third and really wanted to sleep}.. I knew something was wrong. He showed me, and set up more exams. And all that information went to my Dr.’s.

This is my point. Cervical Cancer is easy to cure. If let go it has a fast path.. All cancers travel a certain path, cervical cancer is a fast growing type. There is no exam’s for Uterine or Ovarian cancer, {ultrasounds I have had many MRI or CT had those too are the only test for those two type of cancer}

Cervical cancer is just a pap-smear.. Time consuming, yes. Who wants their feet up with someone all up in their shit like that.

I DO, I want to live

BX{biopsies} are not fun people, there is no anesthesia with them. they just take a chunk {in my case 5} from your cervical wall. I can go into great detail about “Endocervical Quartering”, I can explain what a “Leap” is, I can scare the fuck out of you. I can tell you that a women going to the Dr. same time as me, couldn’t pay and waited 6 months. when she went back, my Dr. looked at her and told her to make arrangements, it had advanced that fast two months later she had died.. Do you want more stories.. Do you want to know how my cousin has been fighting since she was 10, and that she has nothing left internally that she can’t live with out. Everything that could be removed has. her stomach is as small as they can make it, her intestines is as small as she can live with.. There is nothing more they can remove. She is now 36 an in remission, we all know if it comes back there is nothing that can be done. She refuses Chemo and Rad, will never do it again…. It started with Cervical cancer.

Are you scared yet? do you have tears in your eyes.? Do you want to call your best friend, your wife, your sister, your mom?

Do you want to make your appointment.? Please stop reading this and make your appointment.
Thank you..