You know, sometimes I feel like I am a pretty good christian, at times. But when I actually sit and think about it, I feel like a crappy christian. I realize I could never measure up. Turn the other cheek?, not even. No way. Forgiving those who tresspass against me? No way, screw them, especially if they hurt me or my family. I realize Jesus even prayed for those who persecuted and hurt him, and there’s where I see how I could be a better christian. If it was me who was scourged, and spit on, and mocked, and disrespected like that, we’d have a different ending to the story. I could not be like him. Because instead, I feel like taking people who have unfairly hurt me, and hurting them right back…or at least I’d like to see them miserable, and sure, I know that’s wrong.
So what I am saying is, I should be able to forgive better, especially those who have hurt me the most.
