be a better daughter

I got into a small argument today with my mom, but hey, I guess my relationship with my mom will improve just because I want it too. We both need to become more accepting of each other.

I’ve already taken a huge step to becoming a better daughter to my mom. A couple days ago, I went to the doctor for bad stomach pains. They immediately took me to the hospital because they thought it could be my appendix, however, I knew that it wasn’t, and that it was my stomach from abusing prescription drugs. It was hell. I was so scared, and I knew my mom shouldn’t be put through all of this worry, so, I took her outside and told her basically everything I’ve ever hidden from her. At first I felt like I was hurting her and I didn’t know why I told her so many awful things, but I soon realized that I did it because I want my mom to be my friend again. I want her to know the reasons for all the things I do, and I don’t want to lie to her because she wants the best for me, she really does. I feel like she may think less of me, but in the long run I’m glad something good came from such a bad experience.

My mother has been going through some really tough times lately, and she hasn’t been taking enough time to ask how I’m doing, but when I really get to thinking about who she is and what she’s been through in her life, I feel like maybe I don’t show her that I care about her enough either. If I really do this and put my everything into it, my life could change dramatically. I’m very scared my relationship with my mother is going to be ruined, and I’m still young. I know if my relationship with her is ruined, everything in my life will be so much harder, and I cannot lose her. I guess it’s time for me to finally make a change.