Heal

i think i have to change this goal. to remind myself that i have “to heal” as a goal, unattained, may be keeping me in victim mode.
I am thinking about a way to put a positive spin on this, to welcome true health into my life and to let go of past hurts & regrets.
i’m going to reflect on this today & hopefully have a better way to express this by tonight!

healing is a life path i think. not analytical, painful healing as we drudge through life, but healing as a way of life – an unfolding of truth. a chipping away at the blocks. a search for serenity and release. for freedom really. that’s how i see it today.

my dreams seem to be wanting to tell me something.
it isn’t easy to understand though.
they certainly affect me during the day, like i’ve lived through something but can’t remember exactly what…sounds familiar.

i’ve been sick with a bad-ass (can i say ass on here?) cold/flu thing for over a week. it’s exhausting on the body & by day 4 of bronchial coughing, other pains seemed to want to get on board. maybe i got so sick so i could have an excuse to cry & rest in bed & let my mind wander….or maybe i just got a virus.
whichever, i am just focussed on physical healing now.
when i can breathe normally i will continue yoga & meditation.